|Missing Love|

Chapter 44

*Shelby's P.O.V*

It was peaceful in my house. The same house that I would share with Alden. Adam was asleep at the moment so it left me alone with my thoughts.

I'm still thinking about whether or not I want to completely go back to the church and get Alden. Since, I don't want to wait any longer. I need to bring him back home so that he can be safe.

It's been really hard without him.

Aaron is still helping in any way that he can and for that, I'm thankful.

I love knowing that my brother is there for me during this tough time in my life and I really appreciated it.

Also, I have only thrown up once today. I wanna think that I'm feeling better but I still sometimes won't be feeling great.

I'm not entirely sure what's happening.

But there are times where I'm able to keep food down which is great.

My brother is still insisting that I just try to get through the day. Which means that he's telling me that I don't need to do anything at Alexandria.

Even though I do want to help in any way that I can, my brother won't let me.

So I'm currently sitting on the couch in the living room.

The same couch where Alden and I had lots of memories. Whether it was us cuddling, playing Uno, telling stories to each other, or even those special one on one moments if you get what I'm saying.

There's a lot of memories that Alden and I have and I'm always thinking about them.

I sighed. I really hope he's doing okay and also, the more that I think about Alden, the more the decision of going to the church and seeing him is becoming so tempting now.

Like I have to go. No matter if something happened to him or not.

Even so, I'm praying that nothing will happen. I don't want to go to the church and find out that he died.

He can't be dead.

If I completely end up deciding to go to the church then I will leave today to go there.
I'm just saying.

I just miss him so much right now and I would do anything to have him back at Alexandria.

And while I'm thinking about Alden, I can't help but remember a certain memory that happened years ago.

When he first joined Hilltop after the All Out War.

When the war with Negan was completely over and people were back at Hilltop. I was with Maggie when Alden came to talk to Maggie.

I remember that memory clearly and that memory will always be special.

|Flashback|

I was currently talking to Maggie about what had happened on the open field after the saviors had surrendered.

It surprised me when that happened but hey, I'll take it.

"Are you feeling alright?" I asked her as we were walking beside each other.

She looked at me. "Yeah."

Maggie had given me a smile but to me, it didn't look convincing. I can tell that she was still upset about how Rick had chosen to save Negan and not kill him. Maggie really wanted Negan dead after what he did to her husband, Glenn.

But I chose to believe her for now so that there wouldn't be any arguments.

And while we were walking, the savior guy who I remembered walked up to us. I finally learned that his name was Alden.