Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter Seven realization

Nicks Perspective
"Ahhh" I shrieked jerking me up from my awful dream. How embarrassing hopefully I didn't wake Charlie up. With sweat dripping down my face I looked over to my side to check on Charlie and he was gone. I felt in a state of panic and felt flustered I can't remember the last time I woke up with out Charlie beside me. He's probably in the bathroom "Good morning Char" I yelled from the bed. He didn't answer my call, I grab my phone off our night stand beside our bed and feel a small piece of paper slip between my fingers. The note was from Charlie saying he went out for coffee with Sahar. I was happy to know where he was but worried at the same time because Charlie really struggled in public eating settings, plus if anything went wrong I couldn't be there to support him.  "your useless" "Charlie needs you and your just standing there" "Your a failure" "your the worst boyfriend in the history of boyfriends" All these thoughts started flooding into my head uninvited.

Charlie's perspective
After we drank our coffee and finished up we both left Waves Coffee house, all I could think about is what Sahar had said. I need to talk to Nick about this now. I had a tendency to push down my feeling and wait until the last minute to express them but that always ended up in us getting into arguments. I know telling Nick that I think he should go talk to a councillor about his feelings wasn't going to be easy. Nick could talk about my feelings and my emotions all day but when it came to his feelings he was more sheltered and conserved, I don't know why this was but i'm going to figure it out. Squeak SHUT the door closed behind me as I enter our apartment. I could see Nick in the kitchen stirring his tea, The moment he noticed the sound of the door shutting he picked me up and using his hands he wrapped my legs around him, so that I was wrapped on him like a koala bear. "So how did your Coffee run go" he says smiling "great actually, but I didn't feel comfortable enough to eat anything without you there" I say gazing into his beautiful eyes. "That's ok maybe i'll get an invited next time then" he says well laughing and spinning me around. "I wanted to talk to Sahar about you actually" I say kinda hesitantly. "Well I don't blame you I am kinda hot says Charlie spring, have you heard of him?" I couldn't help bursting out laughing after he said that. Nick then says "I made you a waffle because I kinda had feeling that you wouldn't eat anything at the Coffee place" I sit down at the table across from Nick to eat my waffle.

Nicks Perspective
Charlie sits down at the table to eat his waffle I
made him, I can't help but to stare at him. Well staring at him I notice that his hand was shaking and he was chewing extremely slow. I knew right then right there something was wrong whenever he had troubles eating there was always something stressing him out. I hugged him from the back and stepped out of the kitchen to use the restroom. After using the restroom I walked down the hall towards the kitchen to sit with Charlie but then from a distance I noticed he was throwing his waffle in the garage. He used to do this a lot a few years back this made my stomach irk, this reminded me of the times right before he went to the mental hospital. Why was he doing this. Charlie sits down back at the table fiddling with his thumbs, I go to say something and before I could Charlie blurts out.....

Charlie's perspective
After Nick had come back from the bathroom I sat down at the table and blurted out "Nick I need you to be honest with me" I couldn't hold back my thoughts any longer. Nick stands there like he saw a ghost then replies "What are you trying to say" "I'm worried about you, I've been thinking about some things you have said and i'm worried" "What have I said to worry you char?" he says with a concerned look on his face. Instead of answering his question I just say "Do you feel guilty about me getting bullied in high school" He sat down in the chair beside me and put his head in his hands. "oh Nick" I say well rubbing his back. he looks up, tears filling his eyes and says  "I'm a terrible person, your the most kind, sweet, and generous person I know and i'm terrible" "shhh... It's not your fault, you didn't even know me when I was getting bullied" he continues to just cry. "I love you so much and I appreciate you always being my number one supporter but you can let your guard down with me, let me help you with your emotions too." He looks up at me and says "I should have told you that I felt this way, I just felt like my problems weren't big enough to bother you with." I smiled then hugged him tighter than I have ever before.

Nicks perspective
My face and shirt was damp with tears, I felt so safe in Charlie's arms. I threw Charlie over my shoulder and carried him to the couch he was still clinging on to me tight. We sat there in silence for a bit. Charlie made me so happy and I felt so good to finally open up to him but even though Charlie reassured me I still felt guilty. "Nick" Charlie says softly before I could reply he follows up with "I think you should go to a counsellor like me, it really helps!" When he said that I felt awkward about it, I never really considered needing a councillor. I know going to a councillor is a good thing and it really helps Charlie, but it just felt defeating in a sense. The thought of going to councillor made me feel broken and scared. "Can I think about it?" I say back to Charlie. Charlie say "yea of course" but when he said that he had disappointed look on his face.

Few days later...

Charlie's perspective
I needed to warm Nick up to the idea of counselling, this past few days i've showed him some online studies and a few brochures. I've  told him about some experiences that i've had well in counselling, and I think he's warmed up to the idea a bit more. I can't believe how much Nick has opened up to me these past few days, it's been so good for our relationship. He's been acting more himself and he seems so much more relaxed, I feel like running down the street and screaming "I LOVE NICK NELSON!!!!" i'm so in love with him. We were in the kitchen drinking tea I break the silence by saying "Have you put anymore thought into the whole counselling thing?" he puts his tea down and softly says "Yea I have... I think your right." My smile grows three times bigger and I enthusiastically say "Your amazing!!!  I love you soooo much." He smiles as I grab his hand and pull him over to the couch, where I pull out my phone and dial the number to the counselling office before I press call I look over to him, he nods giving me the ok. My finger presses lightly down on the screen and it starts to ring.

Authors Note
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