Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter Seventy One Am I a Burden

Nicks perspective
I rushed over to Charlie picking him up from the back and pulling him away, although I didn't think James would hit him because he was pretty knocked up from the first punch, if he did I think I would've killed him, I know if anybody hurt Charlie I wouldn't be able to control myself or think rationally so I needed to make sure nothing else happened, nothing mattered to me more than if Charlie was ok. When it happened I was in shock Charlie doesn't even like conversational confrontation so when he swung on him I couldn't believe it. Charlie has thought all his life he's weak and worthless but I've never doubted for a second how strong he is, he has gone through a lot and I mean A LOT so for him to think he's weak is ridiculous, he's the strongest person I've ever met. I was worried about him, his hand already looked bruised and swollen I feel awful that he felt the need to punch the guy just because he was an asshole to me, I should've said something back to him but I couldn't he caught me off guard and it hurt because it was completely true what he was saying. It's like he could see my biggest insecurity as if it was written on my shirt, I do feel like i'm annoying Charlie and sometimes feel like my constant presences is a burden on him why did he have to be so FUCKING RIGHT.

Charlie perspective
Nick pulled me out and I screamed from the door way of the building "FUCK YOU PRICK" I was still processing everything that happened I have never even had the thought of punching someone in the face, but here we are. It felt so god dame good to just let him have it, It's almost like the rolls reversed and I had Nicks confidence for a few minutes, Seeing him sitting there feeling like shit just because some prick wanted to ruin our day wasn't going to happen, I couldn't let it happen seeing him like that he looked devastated, helpless even. I didn't want him to feel how i've always felt around bullies, humiliated and small. Nick is so sweet, I feel like I get cavities just look at him, his personality beaming with optimism and excitement, he makes me motivated to be a better person like him, he didn't deserve this. "Charlie Charlie Omg" Nick says as he grabs me into a tight hug clinging to me with everything he has. We sit back into our seats and look into each other's worries expressions. "Charlie are you ok I was so worried please please please never do that again" I never though I would be ok if I got into a fist fight but I was, and I didn't need someone else's protection, I felt strong and honestly if I needed to I would do it again. "I can't promise that" I say eager to hear his thoughts. I could tell he was left with no words then he spoke strongly "Well you need to because you scared the living crap out of me" I tilted my head a little bit as if it would magically help me find an answer "Well i'm scared shitless that your not ok... t,that he really hurt you" My eyes started to water. He turned his head to the side "pffft i'm fine" I could tell how hard he was holding it in like when your on the verge of tears and someone asks if your ok, that feeling when your trying so hard to hide it from everyone but any little nudge will make you crumble to pieces, If Nick would just allow himself to crumble maybe he would see that I could help him pick up the pieces again. "Your not fine don't lie to me" I could see him face drop his mouth twitched, he tried to blink away the droplets forming in his eyes but he couldn't. Then it hit everything hit all at once like a storm. He started to sob as he was pulling his hands up to his face I stopped him I didn't want him hiding from me anymore. "Don't hide your beautiful face" I held on to his hands tight giving them a few love squeezes. He looked at me his face soaked and saddened, it tore my heart out looking at him "I know what he said was true" Nick said, he really couldn't believe that could he? "No that's the furthest thing from the truth you bring me so much joy and happiness, actually your the only thing in my life that beings me pure happiness and enjoyment YOUR FUCKING EVERYTHING TO ME WERE GETTING MARRIED FOR GOD SAKE" he laughed a little but was still crying, I then said "I'll drive home baby your to worked up" he didn't say much just moved seats with me and we set off home.

Nicks perspective
I felt sick thinking about Charlie almost getting hurt because of me, im so lucky that guy didn't swing back at him, he could've been really hurt it would have been my fault. Charlie has always been a good consoler I feel better knowing that i'm not burdening him even though I really really want to believe what the James guy said for some fucked up reason but I know Charlie loves me and he wouldn't lie to me like that so I just need to trust him and whole heartily believe him without doubt that's what I would expect from him. "I don't want you getting in fights because of me" I say quietly trying not to cry again. he doesn't take his eyes off the road he stays quiet pondering "Well Id do anything for you Nick, I saw the look on your face and i've never seen you look like that I saw myself in you I saw myself looking down listening and believing everything the bullies said to me and I didn't want that for you I never want you to feel the way I did" My cheeks hot flashed the tears came flowing down my face again and again I tried to speak but I couldn't I was crying too much thinking about him getting bullied in high school and just how awful most people were to him. "T, Thank y, you love" I managed to splurge out, He looked at me with his smile and blue eyes now filled with tears "I hate seeing you cry so cut it out yeah " he jokes making me laugh a little he then goes on again as we pull into the parking lot "Today was shit" I frown and say in return to his truthful statement "it really was" We get out of the car and Charlie comes running towards me flinging himself into my arms we stood there in the car park just embracing each other as if nothing else mattered.

Authors Note
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