Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter 105 It will be ok

(TW mention of SA )

Charlie's perspective
"I'm sorry I shouldn't still be crying I just can't seemed to stop" Nick said as he wiped his tear socked face against my chest, "That's alright my love don't say sorry i'm here no matter how long you cry for." I put my hand on the back of his neck pulling him tightly against me using minimal pressure well still providing comfort through touch. Nick leaned back away from my chest and wiped his eyes before he stopped crying. "How about you let me take you on a date to cheer you up" I asked, he shook his head lightly well saying "umm i'm not sure i'm up for that" I tilted his head up so his gaze could meet mine "That's ok but how about we go home so you can have a shower and wash her off you, would that make you feel more comfortable" He did sort of a sad smile, like when your really upset and your friend cracks a joke that you can't help but show a little bit of smile for. I knew right when I saw that little smile that he liked that idea, I remember when things happened between me and ben right when I got home I frantically used mouth wash, I actually thought it was a good idea to use my toothbrush and scrub my lips, I was taking all my anger out on myself, I scrubbed and scrubbed them until they were completely raw and bleeding, I won't let Nick take this out on himself it doesn't help anything it honestly makes it worse it drives you mad and makes you hate yourself in ways I didn't think was possible, I don't want that for Nick... I don't want that for anyone. "One shower it is" I said pinching his cheeks, until I got a laugh out of him. He had been sitting on my lap for so long my legs were numb, I started the car and he crawled over to to the passenger side, I reached over his body to buckle him up as I did that I gave him many kisses hoping the extra love would help him feel better I know love can't fix this but it can help, it definitely helps.

Nicks perspective
Charlie parked the car in the lot and gave me another kiss, I really appreciate his tender love he was being very gentle and endearing which made me feel a lot better, I can't help but feel like i'm being so stupid, I shouldn't let this bother me it's not that big of a deal but then there's me crying for half an hour in the parking lot on my fiancés lap like a baby, I wish this didn't bother me as much as it is, I feel weak and totally out of control I wish this would just stop I WISH EVERYTHING WOULD JUST STOPP, the pounding in my head, the places on my body were I could feel her hands touching me as if she was touching me right now, I want to stop thinking about all the things I should've done that maybe could've avoided this because I can't go back in time now I can't take back the past so why did it have to haunt me. My thoughts were interrupted by Charlie touching my arm I wanted to pull away but stopped and told myself that it was only Charlie I didn't need to worry and it worked I didn't pull away rather I followed him inside as he started the shower for me, he put a fresh pair of clothes on the bathroom counter for me to change into plus a clean towel, I felt so loved in this moment like how could anyone get better than Charlie well you can't and he's mine all mine I won't ever take that for granted. He was laying in bed reading (insert what book you want :) he looked so interested in the book as if the words on the page were pulling him in I was stood at the door way looking at him reading the book, I originally came in here to ask him If he would come have a shower with me, I guess I just didn't want to be alone right now but I couldn't bother him he looks so peaceful. Right as I was about to leave, still looking at his book he goes "Nick I can feel you staring, why aren't you having a shower my love can I get you anything" I wanted to ask him but I don't know everything just feels harder than before. Charlie looked up from his book this time "What is it" he said so sweetly it could rot your teeth "erm I wanted to ask if you would come with me" I said shyly regretting even asking, He smiled and placed his book down paying full attention to me, he took off his shirt as he walked closer  "Of course I will I can help you get all clean does that sound good" "yeah" I said as he took my hand and lead me to the washroom, we both undressed and got in the shower, he opened the shampoo bottle and lathered up his hands before washing my hair I just leaned back and let him take care of me I really needed that right now, I love him so much, I'm not sure what I would do without him.

Third person
The dark haired boy washed his fiancés hair with love and care really doing a good job making sure the lighter haired boy was enjoying it, He whispered things he liked about Nick softly into his ear, Charlie helped wash Nicks body, both of them making sure to get her grubby fingers off of him making Nick feel better and less uncomfortable, he didn't like the thought of her all over him and this was the first step to putting this behind him, Charlie stroked his fiancé wet hair and praised him for about everything. The two cried some more but eventually felt better letting everything out and  having one another's support, they dried off and watched a marvel movie even though Charlie hated every minute of the movie Nick was enjoying it and that made it all worth it in Charlie's eyes, The two feel asleep in each others arms on the couch letting the worries of the day fade into the night sky hoping tomorrow would be a better day.

Authors Note
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