Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter 147 Let me out ben

TW SA,  assault, minor mentions of self harm

Nicks perspective
"Watch it man" voices angrily said to me as I pushed and plowed my way through the crowds, I normally wouldn't be so aggressive or rude but I didn't care they were in the way of me and some fresh air. I felt like my lungs were closing in, it was hard to breath my pulse was racing my head hurt I needed to get out of here. I started running towards the door opening it and huffing as I got outside, the air was cold and made my tear stained face feel like ice. I tried to get a proper breath but the cold air felt suffocating. with every breath in and out every time I exhaled it felt like I was only able to inhale a much smaller amount getting worse each time tell the point I was kneeled on the ground clutching my chest trying to breath, I started to feel light headed but I pulled my phone out of my pocket anyways squeezing it so tight I cracked the screen, but I didn't care. Nothing else mattered right now the only thing I could see was red I was so angry and upset what was he thinking even if he's drunk why would he ever want this to happen it makes me question our whole relationship but I won't give up on him I love him. I need to text him and find out where he is.

Nick:
Charlie we need to talk, I don't know where this is coming from but it's not you, did something happen, do you need a hug?

I waited 5 minutes, read no response why is he doing this I cried covering my face with my hands sitting on the cold wet ground. My breath was still gone and I felt like passing out the cold air making me shiver as my jacket was still inside the party. I picked up my phone again sending another text my hands bleeding from the cracked screen.

Nick:
Char why aren't you talking to me this isn't fair I need a proper explanation my heart is broken.

Charlie's perspective
I've been in here with ben for awhile now, Im sitting on the floor of this disgusting bathroom ben pacing around the bathroom laughing at the texts coming through my phone, "Why are you doing this to me if you love me ben?" I asked, he scoffed "Charlie i'm doing this because I love you so you can see how much I need you" I squinted my eyes staring at him tears blurring my vision "Someone who loves me would never do this" he slammed his hand on the wall above me making my whole body jerk forwards . "What the fuck did you say, HOW DARE YOU QUESTION  HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU" I closed my eyes tucking my head into my knees taking shallow breaths trying to stay as calm as possible. he tilted my chin up with his hand pulling me up from the ground slamming me once again against the wall shoving his tongue down my throat. This was exactly what happened in the music room how did I get back here why didn't I listen to my gut I shouldn't have come I shouldn't have put myself in a position where I would be near this psychopath, especially since he's on some sort of substance definitely alcohol as I can taste it but the way he's acting is making me think he may be on something more intense. I was backed up against the wall I couldn't t go anywhere I didn't kiss him back but he forced his lips on mine leaving me no choice to cheat on Nick. What was he going to think of me. "Please stop ben" I cried "PLEASE" I said louder, he pushed me up against the wall after finally pulling his lips off mine I slide down the wall sitting back down on the floor digging my nails into my wrist, I know it's not my fault but it feels like it is I didn't tell nick I didn't want to go I didn't walk away when I saw ben, I didn't tell anyone where I was going, and I wasn't strong enough to shut the door. I should've done everything differently why was I so stupid. Ben bent down in-front of me smirking holding my phone up to my face it, he was showing me the text Nick sent I read them as if he was right here talking to me with his soft smile and caring voice, The last few words on the second text message made me feel sick with guilt. I broke his heart. How can I even look in the mirror knowing I did this i've caused all of this I ruined our relationship Nick will never want to talk to me again. Ben typed to Nick saying: Stop contacting me were DONE

"Noo don't send that please" I begged, he laughed "Not a chance" his thumb hovered over the send button taunting me with it and in a matter of seconds he hit send, I give up seeing as I was exhausted and in so much pain I laid down on the ground curled up in a ball sobbing hoping and praying this nightmare will be over.

Harry's perspective
I've been looking for Charlie for like an hour now I couldn't find him anywhere I checked my car his car all the little rooms in the building, I was starting to worry I promised I would stick by him he stood up for me without hesitation and I won't stop looking for him until I find him, I'm starting to freak out I noticed when we first came in Ben was here he was standing over in the corner of the room looking totally out of it, he wouldn't do anything to Charlie it's been so many years he can't still be holding onto this can he? Fuck I need to find him now.

Authors Note
We can all cry together omg this is depressing
:((((  i'm so sorry