Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter Ninty Three Triggers

Nicks perspective
"Charlie" I said turning my head to look at my boyfriend who's was sitting beside me on the sofa watching tv, "Yes love" he said still keeping his focus on the tv. "I think I want to try and do the modelling thing do you think it's stupid" I had captured his full atttention this time, he snapped his head around facing me and my worried look, seeking his approval. A big smile appears on his face, he grips my shoulders with both his hands "I think you should I really do" he says in a upbeat tone but still grasping a seriousness in the conversation. "I just don't know, I want to go for it but I don't know" he turned his whole body to face me sitting criss cross, Charlie's staple position to sit when we're having a couch conversation. He runs his fingers through my hair and pulling it back ruining my middle part. "Your really spiralling about this aren't you" he says in a questioning way as if he was certain that I was but he wanted to hear me admit it. "I slump my shoulders "Yeah it's scary leaving my career to do something else, I went to university for teaching, now that just seems like a waste of time" I'm unloading everything onto Charlie but I can tell he doesn't mind at all, he's rather curious than anything. "Babe it's not a waste of time you can always go back to teaching if this doesn't work out, your degree isn't getting burned" I laughed at his point but he was right, I could always go back to teaching but this could be my only opportunity to do modelling and I really love it, I love teaching but not in the way I love modelling it's exciting and has a thrilling aspect to it that I just love. "I ran my fingers along his jawline and leaned into him gently kissing his neck and cheeks "Why are you always right" I say into the kisses "I just am" I laughed a little at his confidence, I liked seeing him that way "Well maybe it's because your a nerd" I say pulling away from his neck. "Well obviously you like nerds because" I cut him off by pressing my lips onto his. "Are you trying to shut me up Nicolas" I cringed at the thought of him calling me Nicolas, I hate it when people call me Nicolas my mom never called me that the only person who did was my dad and the childhood memories I had with him weren't good ones, David was the one who always got to go to games and do fun things with dad, they would make some excuse why I couldn't join and leave me crying to my mom asking her why Dad hated me, she would comfort me and say positive things about him but I know she was just as disappointed in him as me, I never knew why Dad didn't like me as much as david, david used to call me a fairy and a pussy because I liked to do things with mom like bake and watch movies with her, I liked doing everything and anything with her because I needed her to love me because if she didn't who would sure wouldn't be my dad and david. Dad wanted to toughen me up, so I could be like david, and when I wasn't the perfect son he wanted me to be he would just yell at me to stop being dramatic and a little girl, I can just imagine it now Dad and david just loving the fact i'm bi, laughing and making me the center of there jokes. I feel a warm hand brush against my chest "Sorry I forget you don't like being called that did I upset you, do you need a hug" I didn't want Charlie to know why it bugged me I hate my stupid Dad and that his stupid shit bugs me, I hate it, I want to forget about him I want to forget he even exists, I want it to be behind me. I did really want a hug so I nodded my head yes and leant into him resting my head on his shoulder. After two or so minutes Charlie scrunches my already messed up hair and says "Are you recharging" "Mmhm" I mumbled nuzzling my face into his shoulder more now.

Charlie's perspective
I know that Nick gets triggered by something when anyone calls him Nicolas, I used to do it a lot until I noticed he almost winces when anyone says it like there pulling up a dark memory or pressing rubbing alcohol on an open wound that hasn't healed properly. I'm assuming it's something to do with his dad, he never says anything about him, anytime his mom or I mention his dad he ignores it or gets really upset he tries to hide it but we can tell. I won't ask him about it he obviously doesn't want to hear it I understand that, people asking about the shit that hurts can bring it up and bringing it up before your ready to talk about it just makes the situation more hurtful and I don't want Nick to be hurting. He pulls away and I lean in and kiss him this time. After I kiss him I inform him about our meet up with Elle and Tao, trying to distract him from what he was upset about "Elle has invited us to go for coffee tomorrow at the new shop down by the peer, I think it would be nice to do something fun tomorrow what do you think?" Nick pulled me onto his lap cuddling me, making me smile like you wouldn't believe. "If your there i'm there" he said in a loving tone and I felt like I feel in love with him all over again.

Third person
The two boys cuddled on the couch giving each other attention by kissing or the offer of attention known as physical touch, but what nether one of them knew was how something that sounded like a fun meet up would turn into something very upsetting...

Authors Note
My first day went ok smth I really never thought would happen happened and it was good thing but one of my ex friends is in my class and I really wanted nothing to do with her and her pathetic drama that she loves to stir up with my other ex friend we were a trio 💀💀 trios never work that's my advice to y'all don't even bother. I SWEAR ALL I WANT IS TO KEEP MY HEAD DOWN AND GET INTO ZERO DRAMA my mental state can't handle it, she was already trying to get me into more drama and she sat next to me in maths I only had one class today home room which is maths for me hopefully she's in none of my other classes 🤞🤞🤞🤞 sorry for the rant... Ily you all and to support me and my story you can vote or comment or even better do both I really appreciate it see you tomorrow 🥰😘