Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter Eighty Six Call me Mom

Nicks perspective
I slumped back into bed as I heard my mom Knock on my old bedroom door for the fifth time this morning, I get she's worried about the whole situation and that she might be missing being there for me all the time, but i've told her all I know about what has happened, so her bringing it up is just making me cry and I can't stop once I've started, it's all i've been doing these past few days and I hate it. I broke down crying twice last night in front of my mom, she can be a bit too much sometimes so I definitely don't want her to come in and see me crying for a third time. I pressed my face against the pillow so I didn't have to feel the cold tears stream down my face. "Mom i'm tired leave me sleep" I could hear her run her fingers along the door as if she was stroking it "Do you need to talk about it more" I took a deep breath in calming myself from snapping at my mom "No mom i've already talked about it enough " "Alright then Nicky it's going to be fine, Charlie will be fine" My breath started to stagger as the need to cry out loud was getting more intense how did she know Charlie was fine that's the point she doesn't nobody does the only person who knows is Charlie. As my mom makes her way back down stairs I pound my fists on the bed so frustrated with myself why didn't I stay at home with Charlie what happens if he would've opened up to me.

Charlie's perspective
I didn't wake up this morning because I never went to sleep I tried but it felt like my past traumas turned into ghost and were haunting me, I could see bens face everywhere it was burned into my memory. I went into our closet and grabbed my favourite Nick sweater pulling it over my head after taking off the one I slept in that was now full of sweat and tears. I was going to put on my everyday black skinny jeans but I decided I would wear a blue wash pair that Nick loved on me he insisted I wear them just once and true to my promise I did but never put them again new articles of clothing are hard for me to wear because I feel like I look bad in everything, I started wearing black skinny jeans and just never stopped, I never put them on in the mirror and contemplated for two hours if they look decent on me or not I put them on and they look the same as they always do on me I never had to wonder what they'll look like with this shirt or jumper because I already knew. I have no idea what has gotten to my head and made me put on the blue wash jeans today but I did and I felt good about it. I went to the washroom and used gel and some leave in conditioner to style my hair I put extra care into it this morning, It almost felt like I was back in high school when I would get ready to go over to Nicks making sure I looked perfect! I would walk over with a pit in my stomach excited to see my boyfriend but also a little nervous. Now he sees me drooling with my hair all messy snoring beside him in bed there is no pressure to impress him anymore because we are completely comfortable around each other. But today today was different I felt the pressure.

an hour later...
I stepped onto the familiar door step that was Sarah's, I knocked gently on the door hoping that Sarah would open the door giving me a few minutes to prepare myself to tell Nick everything. And that she did, "Hi baby it's so good to see you oh how i've missed you coming round here all the time" I smiled and she pulled me inside and wrapped me up in a hug. I just hugged her back. She parted from me and I did the same and I said to her with a genuine tone "I wish my mom was like you" I knew Nick would have told her about my birthday so I thought I should just be honest with her. She tilted her head in a soft way and rubbed my shoulders "Well i'm your mother in law aren't I" I nodded my head yes before saying "Well almost Sarah" She took a sip out of her mug and then asked "I've been meaning to ask you something since the proposal, I would be honoured if you would call me Mom would you do that Baby" My cheeks burned up and flushed a bright pink and the smile on my face grew much larger at the thought of Nicks wonderful mom asking me if I would call her mom she accepted me and wanted me "Yeah I would really like that" she pulled me in for another long hug. I felt so at peace and happy at Moms house that sounded so weird to even think I've never thought of Sarah as my mom before but i'm so happy I do now. "I should probably go talk to Nick now" I said nervously, she looked at me reading my expression like a book "Go easy on him he's upset and emotional right now he feels really bad about not staying with you yesterday" I nodded taking in the new infirmation that was handed to me, I knew he would beat himself about this I know I have many problems with mental health but i'm an adult now and can take care of myself although I don't like being by myself at the house if he needs some space then he shouldn't feel guilty about leaving me, or not going just because he's scared i'm going to hurt myself. I walked up the stairs to Nicks old bedroom...

Authors Note
Omg another cliffhanger aren't I the best but in seriousness sorry about that I wanted to not leave the chapter here but It's late and if you've noticed my chapters are all around the same length that's because I usually cap them off at around 1000 words give or take. I ramble too much lol but I do like how I don't rush the story I like yo let it flow so really get a feel what each Character is thinking. Enough of me yapping but I truly want to personally thank you for reading and if you voted or left me a comment that means so much to me and really supports me as a writer and my story ily ❤️❤️ also would any of you be interested in talking to me as a friend let me know if you guys would like it if I put my snap in the next authors note and we could talk about heartstopper or anything ok bye love you 💗