Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter 112 Misunderstanding

Nicks perspective
The next morning...
I quickly silenced my alarm and slowly took my arms off Charlie who was still sound asleep, he had seemed to be calmed down before bed, but I still cuddled him all night not letting go even once. I don't know what is wrong or what I can do to help him, I have a feeling it's something I've done or maybe he knows I've been lying to him, it's just embarrassing, and I don't want him to see me differently. I went to our bathroom and pulled out my phone watching the step-by-step video Ron sent me on pre make up skin care. I'm not sure if girls do this every time, they put on makeup it seems so extra, it's like fifteen products but Ron was very insistent that I do it so I can make sure my skin is perfect he goes on and on about how I wouldn't want clogged pores blah blah blah. I didn't want to do this shoot not at all, it made me feel uncomfortable it was out of my comfort zone and something I've never done before, wearing skirts and makeup was never something I wanted to experiment with or wear. I know some guys like wearing skirts and eyeliner there's nothing wrong with that, but it wasn't something I desired, I haven't mentioned it to Charlie yet and I've been avoiding it. I didn't want him to see me differently or think this is what I wanted to dress like I was just doing it for the shoot and the new company that needed the advertisement pictures. I felt so awkward whenever I thought of bringing it up to him, would he understand? I know Charlie always goes on about how much he likes that I'm very masculine and bigger and stronger than him, he especially loves it when I grow out my bread, I always shave it though I think it makes me look a lot older than I am, the point is I just don't want to let him down, I don't want him to find me unattractive and every time I push my insecurities aside I just freeze up unable to tell him.

I got to work and let them get me ready for the shoot, it was a new all-inclusive brand catering to guys that liked more feminine clothing, this brand had many other successful lines and just started this one. The makeup artist did the base blush and a lot of highlighter, white eyeliner and no Mascara, she painted my nails with white polish then showed me to my dressing room. where I was given a long white skirt that reached my ankles and a dark green skintight long sleeve shirt with a beige sweater vest to put on top. I got dressed, had my hair touched up then was ready to shoot.
Charlies' perspective
Again, I woke up to Nick being gone he didn't even wake me up to say goodbye, I miss him Hes been acting so strange and secretive these past few days, ever since the makeup products started appearing everywhere, that's it I'm completely over it if Hes cheating I'm finding out today I'm calling Ron and seeing if he knows anything Hes the only person I think could know something if Elle, Tao, Tara, Aled, or Darcy heard anything they would instantly tell me Ron was my last hope to figuring this out.
Phone call to Ron
"Hi"
"Hi" I said back but knew when I heard the voice it wasn't Ron it was harry his boyfriend
"It's erm Charlie calling"
"Hey Charlie, how's it"
"Umm fine I guess"
"Well, why that response what's happened do you need a ride are you hurt I can come right now"
"No, I'm physically fine just confused about Nick"
"Oh why?"
"Just the makeup I've been finding-" he cut me off
"-I saw him today he looked great he actually suits it I think"
"what are you talking about he suits what"
"The makeup, he suits the makeup Hes been wearing for these shoots lately, I thought that's what we were talking about"
I was silent for a few seconds I had no idea, Nick never told me.
"Nick didn't tell me he was wearing makeup for shoots, I kind of thought he was seeing someone else"
harry laughed "Charlie, Nick is obsessed with you, your all he talks about"
"thanks harry seriously I've been freaking out about it for the past three days"
"Mate anytime call about anything I've been going into work with Ron everyday so I know what Nicks up to most of the time'
"thank you"

I hung up the phone and felt so much anxiety melting away, he was wearing makeup not cheating on me, thinking of it now I'm a little hurt he hides this from me I mean did he think I would judge him. Maybe it's my fault, maybe its because I talk too much about how I like how masculine he is, and hes now scared of what I'll think, I know no matter what I'm attracted to him I love his heart and how much love and positivity he has to offer the world; it doesn't matter if he wants to wear a skirt or do his makeup every morning as long as he comes home to me every night I don't care. Maybe I'll uber over there and bring our spare set of keys with me so I can drive us home, a surprise pick up sort of thing and maybe I can bribe him to tell me with ice cream on the way home, that always seems to work.

Authors Note
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