Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter Thirty Nap Time 

Charlies' perspective
I was walking down the beach with Nick, just looking at him talk memorized me. I was trying my very hardest to stay focused, But I could feel my eyes trying to shut. My legs and arms felt sore and my whole body was tired after playing volleyball in the water. Although I'm not the most athletic person in the world, that wasn't the reason I was feeling so tired. I knew I was feeling tired because of those pills I'm taking; gosh why did I need them to sleep if I was just normal, I wouldn't need them and this wouldn't be happening right now. Nick was talking about ice cream, and I knew my presents was drifting away. I was trying to listen and engage in the conversation, but I couldn't, I was way too tired. I snap back into reality when nick says well messing with my messy untamed hair "Charlie are you listening to me" I didn't really know how to respond because I missed the entire thing he just said. "Umm yeah sorry I just zoned out for a minute" I say timidly hoping he would believe me. "Thats ok char, any particular reason you zoned out?" I didn't know what to say he was so caring and loving and deserved to have my full attention when he's talking, he always gives his full attention and more to me when I'm talking about something. I didn't want to admit I was tired it just felt defeating and I wanted to make the most out of our last day in Marrocco. Most of all I didn't want another one of my problems to ruin our day, I have certainly done that enough this vacation. Nick then says "Charlie what's wrong why Arnt you answering me? Fuck, I just completely got swallowed up in my own thoughts again. "Nothing's wrong at all, I guess I just got caught up in my head" He puts his hands on my forearms and stops walking "Charlie what you just said kind of worries me, what are you thinking about that has you so preoccupied" I felt flustered by his response I didn't really know what to say "no, no don't worry I guess I'm just a bit tired, let's just keep walking" After I said that I did feel a bit of regret because honestly I have no idea how much longer I can walk, my whole body was starting to feel really tired.

Nicks perspective
I knew there was something off about Charlie, but nothing clicked until he said "no, no don't worry I guess I'm just a bit tired, lest keep walking." It all made sense why he wasn't paying attention to the conversation, why he was walking so slowly, and why he seemed completely drained. I should have figured that out sooner, now I just felt like a jerk for making him go on a walk with me when he was so tired. I love the fact that Charlie takes pills to help him sleep now he desperately needed them, but they do come with side effects and the main one being extreme tiredness, I sometimes feel a bit disappointed when he falls asleep, and we have plans but I completely understand and never want him to feel guilty for listening to his body and taking a nap. I take off my sunglasses so I can look him in the eyes and say "babe are you tired" he looks at me and I could tell he was being a little bit untruthful "I'm a bit tired, but let's keep walking I want to find a blue piece of sea glace" I knew by his facial expression that he didn't want to walk anymore and was just trying to keep me happy. "Charlie I've been your boyfriend for so long now do you not think I know when you're with holding the full truth from me. We can go back to our blanket and take a nap" I know he wouldn't like this suggestion because Hes stubborn, but I didn't expect him to say, "Nick I'm not a baby, that your babysitting, IM FINE!" I knew he didn't think what he was saying was true because we take naps together all the time, but I have no idea why Hes so frustrated and irritated. I want to comfort him because I can tell there is something else on his mind, but I don't think that's the best solution right now.

Charlie perspective
Omg suddenly, I just snapped at Nick I have no idea why I just did that he was just trying to help, and he was right too but I hated this burning feeling of guilt I felt when I take a nap and ruin our alone time together. Plus, afterwards I can't shake the feeling that Nick is angry or frustrated with my constant tiredness. Nick looked shocked at my rude remark, he was just standing there speechless. He then says "Charlie I know that's the tiredness talking and you're not really angry at me for suggesting we take a nap, so let's go cuddle up on the beach in the warm sun and rest. Then we can come back and collect more sea glace" I frown then say "I'm sorry-" he cuts me off right away "No saying sorry, now I'm going to carry you back to the beach blanket and when we get there, you're going to tell me what's wrong and what is bothering you." I smile at the thought of not having to walk back and his sweet words. My mind finally feels at rest and then he picks me up and throws me over shoulder and I almost crawl onto his back so that Hes giving me a piggyback ride. He then whispers, "I love you more than anything, but you need to tell me what's wrong, ok?" I don't say anything, I just snuggle my head into his neck and kiss him as many times as possible.