Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter Fifty Nine Nightmare

Nicks perspective
I woke up to my face and pillow being soaked from tears, my shirt was sweaty and I was out of breath "Thank god that was just a nightmare" I mumbled under my breath. It felt so detailed so real the thought of it made me want to shrivel up. I was sitting up still crying in our bed, My mind was swimming through a maze of thoughts and feelings all at once, I tried to just stop thinking about it but I couldn't the nightmare just kept replaying in my head like a movie that I had watched a million times and knew all the lines too. I just wanted it to stop but it wouldn't, making me feel grief and anger. Tears still rolling down my cheeks, I tried to muffle my sniffling but I couldn't and I feared it would wake up Charlie. So I slowly moved out of bed carefully so I wouldn't wake him up, I really didn't want Charlie to know, I felt embarrassed that I was crying over a nightmare, i'm not an enfant anymore but I couldn't help it the thought of losing Charlie made me feel an overwhelming amount of emotions even if it was just a nightmare. The worst part is that this dream won't stop lurking in my mind it's like I can't take my attention off of it no matter how hard I try. I walked into the kitchen sitting at our table, I finally managed to calm down and stop breathing so heavy. I was sipping on some Gatorade from the fridge when I heard the floor creaking a little as if a small child was trying to sneak up on their parents.

Charlie's perspective
I rustled around in our bed feeling coldness all around me I turned over to Nicks side with my eyes still closed feeling around for him so I could steal some of his body heat but I felt nothing but a cold empty void. I opened my eyes and blinked a few times before realizing that Nick was gone that was so weird and unusual it was literally the middle of the night. He wasn't in the bathroom because I could see the bathroom from our bed and he wasn't in it. I walked out of our room and saw from our hallway Nick sitting in the dark at the kitchen table I crept up to him trying to be as silent as possible. The only real explanation for why I felt the need to be so quite was because it was the middle of the night, I really don't know why I didn't just walk over to him normally.

Nicks perspective
I turn around to see Charlie slowly walking towards me, Im not really sure what I should say but anything but the truth would suffice. I use a low tone voice and say "Charlie go back to sleep you were exhausted today you need sleep" he walked closer and said in a comforting voice "Why are you up it's so late" I hesitantly said "I needed a drink my throat was really dry" he then nods his head and says "Ok baby come to bed soon" I don't normally get set off by minor things very often but I snapped "Don't call me that" I say in a normal tone not trying to whisper anymore. He shook his head and replied "What's going on I always call you that" I felt regret when he said that it's almost like I just completely forgot that we always call each other baby, what was wrong with me. "I'm just tried Charlie I'm sorry I don't know why I said that, I love you" He replies "I love you too" then walks back into our bedroom to go back to sleep I still sat here at the table not knowing when I would even attempt to try and go back asleep my mind was still replaying the same dream over and over again.

Charlie's perspective
I crawled back into bed alone, Nick didn't make any sense there was definitely a reason he was just randomly sitting in our kitchen at like 2:00 am, I'll give him some time and i'll figure it out and in the morning. I was just nodding off again when I feel our bed sinking down, then I feel him pull me into him and wrap his arms completely around me, I was happy that he came back to bed to get some rest. This way  our bed didn't seem to empty anymore.

The loud sound of the shower had stopped suddenly and shortly after I could hear Nick in there brushing his teeth. I laid in bed patiently waiting for Nick to come back into our bedroom and change so I could ask him about last night. He walked in wearing a towel he then took it off throwing it on the floor well he ploughed through our closet looking for something to wear. He put on his boxers and know was searching for a shirt or maybe shorts... I wasn't sure "Nick" I say waiting for his response. "Mmhm" he mumbles signalling me to continue "What happened last night" He keeps his head down pretending to still look for something "I was thirsty I already told you love" I knew he was lying, why was he lying to me. "Stop lying to me" I blurt out not being able to hold it in any longer. A sort of panic floods his face "It's childish" he says quietly. "You know nothing that is bothering you, I will think is childish" He just ignores what I say and continues to get dressed. I get out of bed and hug him from behind "Please tell me" I say pleading. he lets out a sigh and replies "I was really upset last night because I had a bad dream and I guess , erm... it scared me, I know that probably sounds stupid" It didn't sound stupid or childish at all I just wish he wouldn't told me sonner maybe I could've helped. "That's not stupid at all babe what happened" He turned around to pull me into a proper hug "I thought I lost you" when he said that his grip became tighter. "Awe babe I'm fine and i'm not going anywhere, I really wish you told me sooner though" he kissed my forehead saying "Yeah I should've but it was embarrassing, I didn't want you to laugh at me." I rubbed his back and said "I would never ever laugh at you when your upset even if you were crying about  a paper cut because I care about your feelings and you, I don't want you to be embarrassed about anything you can always tell me i'll never laugh at you love." We were silent for awhile just embracing each other then he quickly said "I, I couldn't stop thinking about it like it actually happened, but it didn't and my mind wouldn't stop going" I ran my fingers through his hair and said "I'm sorry love, but maybe you could bring it up to your councillor your weekly appointment is tomorrow" "yeah your right" he says before resting his head on my shoulder.

Authors Note
I'm back and so happy to be writing again, ugh 😩 I missed it so much hope you enjoyed todays chapter 😍❤️ love you all