Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter Eighty Dinner has Started

Nicks perspective
I paced around Charlie's small room kicking myself for letting him just shove me off and locking the door, I should've done something, stopped him from pushing me away like that. I wish I made sure he was ok before he locked himself away from everyone... from me. I wanted to check on Oliver but I couldn't risk not being right here in case Charlie needed me. I heard the door click and the knob turned Charlie appeared slipping through the crack in the door hair damp and the same clothes he had wore here his eyes looked calm and not a raging red colour like before weirdly enough he had a smile on his face I had expected him to come out crying, upset and I hate to say it but I thought he would have cut himself he just seemed so upset so emotionally tore he was acting emotionally irrational but now he walked out seeming fine like nothing even happened. I could feel the intense feeling of relief wash over me he was ok my baby was ok, but the worry wasn't gone yet you can't get over something in a span of 15 minutes whatever it was it wasn't good and wasn't going to go away that easy it would be battle.

he came up to me resting his arms on my shoulder pulling me in tightly pressing his soft cherry pink lips against mine. I pulled away this didn't feel right I felt as if I shouldn't even be kissing him in this situation I felt as if I was praying on his emotions I know I wasn't but it felt wrong to be making out with him well he was in this mindset this emotional distress. "Charlie what happened" he avoided my question like it wasn't even said at all "Kiss me" he said in a whiny voice. I kissed his cheek and rubbed my hand down his jaw "Your so amazing Charlie I hope you realize how much I admire you" He smiled and put his hand on my chest "Will you kiss me then" he said, I was starting to get annoyed why won't he stop messing around and just tell me I don't want to be on the outside of our house looking in through the window. "Not until you tell me what your shit mother said to you" right as those unthought out words left my mouth I felt like the worst fiancé ever. Even though his mom was awful to him he still loved her and would always defend his family no matter what I should've never disrespected his mom like that, he took a step back from me and his smile turned into a frown "What the hell Nick" "Charlie i'm so sorry that was way out of line I didn't mean it i'm just upset" I grabbed his hand and kissed it "How can I make it up to you" I said in a desperate tone, he said in response "Forget about what happened earlier" my only option at this point was to agree, I'll figure this out later somehow but for now i'll just drop it even though it pains me too. "Ok I will... I love you so much" He kissed me on the lips reciprocating my affection.

Charlie's perspective
Nick was off my back finally, I couldn't tell him! even if I wanted to I wouldn't know how. The cold water running down my skin helped my mind be clear of any thoughts any bad thoughts that would lead me on a dangerous path that I would regret, my therapist suggested trying cold showers he was right they do help. I grab Nicks hand as I lead him down stairs as my moms voice filled the empty spaces and cracks in the house unifying everyone together for dinner. Her words didn't spin around my head like normal it felt like they were spinning the rest of the thoughts around in my head making me only think about one thing. Nick grabbed my thigh underneath the table his soft touch brushing up and down. This feeling I get every time I'm at this table came back the feeling of guilt and self hatred. I needed to prove my mom wrong I won't forgive myself if I don't. Everyone had started serving themselves food except me and Nick, I could've just started serving my plate but there was so many people around me doing it and i've always hated serving myself people always make comments about how little I take and I feel like all eyes are watching me observing my every movement judging me. Nick was waiting for me so I wouldn't seem so out of place my mom snarked "Nick Whats wrong with you do you have that problem too come on eat up"  she said that in such a disgusted tone that tone she would refer to me in she was disgusted by me. I quickly shot Nick a please don't make a scene look and he understood

Nicks perspective
"No I don't have any troubles eating i'm just being polite and waiting for everyone else to be done so i'm not reaching over anyone and Charlie's doing the same" Jane smiled and responded "Thats good to hear we wouldn't want two troubled kids now would we go on eat up I made Charlie's favourite" I'm not sure tuna casserole was Charlie's favourite but he did like it i've made it a few times. I grabbed a scoop of corn and placed it on Charlie's plate it was small and mangeable I placed the same small portion on mine I was doing anything to make sure Charlie's dinner went well it was his birthday for fuck sakes he deserved one good memory with his mom at this table. I watched as Charlie grabbed what he wanted and I grabbed the same I didn't want it to look like he was taking very little so if we both took that amount he might blend in more that was my hope but I think I made it worse. Janes awful voice pierced my ears again with her usual sour comments "You've been living with Charlie too long huh Nick he's rubbing off on you" she said in the most sickly nice expression ever pointing towards my plate with small portions. Charlie grabbed my thigh tight signing me to keep my mouth shut it's what he wanted so I did, but I could see Charlie's head lower and expression soften which made me want to throw my plate at her face. Charlie's dad was quiet too, I
could see the sympathy he had for his son so why he wouldn't stand up for him is beyond me. Michael stood up and left the table, he had tears in his eyes he really loved Charlie so much so he couldn't sit there any longer watching him get borated on his own birthday. Tori stayed the table and monitored her mom. Charlie was eating and doing so well half his plate was done even under all this stress he was still eating I felt so much pride just being able to call myself his fiancé. The sky's were blue until Charlie reached over to grab the salt and his mom noticed his wrist as his sleeve drew up his arm. It was the cut from the glass the scar was huge and wouldn't go unnoticed.

Authors Note
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