Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter five Anxiety

(TW mention of anxiety attacks and ED)

Nick perspective
"It's ok Nick i'm sure he's just not feeling good" Elle says as i'm standing there about to cry. "But even when he's puking he wants me to be around to confront him" "Nick your thinking into it to much he probably just needs a minute" Darcy replies. I knew Charlie better than anyone, and I knew something was wrong they just don't know him like I do. "What's going on in there it's been 25 minutes, what happens if something is actually wrong with him and I don't know" I said well pacing up and down the small hospital room. Sahar sits me down and calms my nerves she was a therapist now and a good at that. "Thanks" I say before going in for a hug. I pulled up a chair beside Elles bed and tried talking to her to get my mind off of Charlie, It worked for a bit but not long. Another 20 minutes had passed and then comes Charlie through the hall into the room where we were all gathered. The moment my eyes locked on Charlie I grabbed him pulling him close to me, my hands holding on to his arms tight. "Are you ok, What happened, do you want to leave?" Charlie looks at me and says "i'm fine don't worry i just got dizzy that's all." well smiling. I didn't fall for his act, but why was he acting he never puts his guard up with me. These thoughts bubbled through my mind the rest of the hospital visit with Elle.

The nurse Came in and told us that Elle needed to get checked by the doctor and we needed to go home now, Toa showed all of us out of the hospital and said good bye. We all parted our different ways, and went to our cars. The moment mine and Charlie's car door shut, I couldn't hold back my tears. As tears rolled down my face I looked at Charlie and said "what happened I was so worried" Charlie replied with "I'm sorry I just got really dizzy" then he reached his hand over to my face and wiped away my tears. "Ok well we should go home and i'll make you tea and a nice dinner, then I can cuddle you all night well watching some stupid youtube videos,"I said. "No I want to make dinner tonight I wanted to make your favourite, I already planned it out," Charlie says. I don't know why he wanted to cook I usually do all the cooking, and cooking sometimes triggered his ED. That's why him cooking scared me so much and now especially since he wasn't feeling the best. "umm well your not feeling good babe let me make your favourite soup." I say well kissing his hand. Charlie says "No Im fine and I already planned dinner, I know you'll love it" "ok" I replied. Well on the way home Charlie fell asleep in the car he looked stressed even in his sleep. I pulled of the main road and pulled into the gas station parking lot, I locked the door and ran into the gas station to grab some gatorade, blue was his favourite, and his favourite chocolate M&Ms. I payed and quietly got back into our car without waking him. Once we arrived home I gently picked him up in my arms and carried him into our apartment. He didn't even wake up in the elevator, those sleeping pills he was prescribed did make him a really deep sleeper now. I tucked him into our bed and got started cooking his favourite soup French onion soup. After about 45 minutes I finished up
cooking and was cleaning the kitchen as I hear Charlie yelling my name from our bedroom. I raced in the bedroom right away "Are you ok" I ask, "I'm fine, I'm just confused how I got from the car to our bed?" he replies. "I carried you from the car you were exhausted" I say well scuffing his hair. "It's fine Nick i'm not that tired, you can just wake me up next time i'm probably heavy" hahaha I laugh and pinch his cheeks well saying "your lighter then a feather, now come to the kitchen." We both go to the kitchen  and I pull Charlie to the table where our food was set out. "Nick you didn't have to I could've made dinner" "Charlie" I say sternly. "Why are you acting like this, your acting like i'm useless and you don't need me at all." Charlie's face turned red and he ran over to me and sat on my lap facing me. He hugged me and put his head on my shoulder and started to ball his eyes out. He leans in and says "I saw the way you were hugging Elle it looked like the way you hug me and made me think that you thought of me as some broken mess like I needed your constant attention, I just didn't want to be a burden to you, I can't lose you." "Charlie Your never going to lose me, and I don't think your broken, you've just have a hard time sometimes and that's ok it's not your fault and I love taking care of you, I feel useful. He looks at me and kisses me well tears are still streaming down his face. We ate dinner and I
scooped him up like a baby and gently placed him in bed then grabbed the gatorade that I bought for him at the gas station and gave it to him. he looks at me and his smile is incredibly contagious "I love you" we both say as we hop into bed. He lays on top of me and falls asleep almost instantly, I loved him so much.

Charlie's perspective
We walked out of the hospital and got in the car, once the door had shut Nick started to cry, and asked me what happened and he was worried. Gosh i'm useless, he thinks i'm so bretelle that a little nudge will break me. I told him that I was fine and we started to drive home. I felt myself nodding off I tried to fight it but I couldn't the next thing I know i'm out cold. My eyes blink and I wake up in my bed I call out to nick and then he starts running down the hallway to make sure I was ok. All I could think about was how he probably wanted to leave me for someone that didn't need his constant attention. he ask me "are you ok" and I  told him I just was confused how I got from the car to the bed, but in reality I knew he had carried me up, this wasn't the first time he's done that after i've had a long day. He then pulled me into the kitchen and I saw that he cooked my favourite soup, I'm an idiot I shouldn't have fallen asleep, Now he's spent his night cooking dinner for me he probably thinks i'm the most needy person on this planet. " Nick you didn't have to I could've made dinner. I said, Then Nick got a little bit angry with me and said  "Why are you acting like this, your acting like i'm useless and you don't need me at all." when he said that my heart dropped I felt so relieved he didn't think of me as burden and that he wanted me to need him. I went over to him and sat on him and then started to ball as I rested my head in his shoulder. I told him why I was acting this way and then I kissed him even though my salty tear were still streaming down my face falling onto our touching lips. He picks me up and cradles me like a baby after we finished eating, I felt butterfly's in my stomach. We laid down and then he gets up to grab something and when he comes back he's holding a bottle of blue gatorade, he knew me better than anyone. He laid down beside me and I couldn't control myself I crawled up onto him laying flat on top of him. I closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep but I just couldn't shake the thought of what he said "Am I useless" and "I love taking care of you I feel useful." is my Nick okay, I needed to help him. I needed to fix one of his problems for once instead him always fixing mine.

Authors Note
Thank you all for the support I really appreciate it!!! And a special Thank you to Gabrielle869962 I'm so happy your enjoying the story and I really appreciate all your kind comments❤️❤️❤️