Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter Twenty Four Regret

Nicks perspective
Earlier that day....
Today has been such a beautiful day me and Charlie spent most of the day splashing around in the water together, but since what happened last time we went to the beach I didn't let him leave my side for a second. I'm definitely very overprotective of Charlie but he does need someone in his life like that because of all the mental health issues he faces on the daily. If anything were to happen to him I would be crushed, Charlie is my entire world and has been since the day I met him if anything were to happen to him my life would be over, this may seem dramatic but it's the truth. My mom called us over for lunch and I made sure to reassure Charlie that I loved him, we walked over to everyone waiting for us. We sat down and Charlie grabbed some fruit and a biscuit I was so happy to see him grab that amount of food and actually start eating it in-front of everyone, I was so proud of him but I would still be proud of him if he ate nothing and waited tell we got home. I noticed when he got to the biscuit he kinda looked like he was choking it down trying not to bring any attention to his disgust towards the biscuit. I could see right through the fake little smile he gave me when he noticed I was staring at him. God it made me so frustrated that he wouldn't just tell me how he was feeling, he feels like he's a burden on peoples life's which he's not but no matter how much I tell him he isn't still deep down he feels like a burden, and that's something I don't think I can fix anytime soon. Charlie looked sickly after eating a donut that was forced on him by my jerk of a brother. He then said "I'm going to the washroom" I replied with "ok" but like 2 minutes after he left I followed him, just to make sure everything was ok I didn't want to jump to conclusions but I had a really bad feeling he had done something awful. I hear Charlie gagging and my heart shattered, I didn't know how to help him except being as comforting as possible and staying calm. I yell so he can hear me "CHARLIE LET ME IN NOW!"  and knock a bit. He went really quiet immediately I put my face grossly close to the out houses door and tried to hear him inside but he was quiet "Charlie can you hear me!" I say. He started sobbing and hyper ventilating, I needed to get to him. Charlie starts saying "I'm sorry Nick, I ruin everything" I softly replied "Baby no no you never ruin anything, we can talk about this but you need to open the door" He cried and cried and cried then finally opened the door. He was standing there looking down at the ground he wouldn't even look at me, I pulled him out of the outhouse and sat him down on my lap on the beach. " Charlie what happened you need to tell me" he sniffed and  then whimpered  "I.. I didn't want to eat in-front of your family because of david and his girlfriend, I was g.. going to tell you but then your brother was saying mean stuff about me and I wanted to prove him wrong b.. but he's right I am messed up in the head." My brother did what! I was going to fucking kill him after I calm Charlie down, i'm done with his homophobic ass he can be mean to me all he wants but being mean to Charlie is where I draw the line. "Charlie you are not messed up in the head and anything that comes out of my brother's mouth is fucking bullshit, Charlie I hate seeing you get hurt, these situations can be avoided if you just talk to me please" Charlie looks at me looking down at him "I'm sorry Nick I just never learn I fuck up everything, I'm so sorry" I reply "Char I love you, you DONT FUCK EVERYTHING UP!! , actually your my everything without you Charlie my life is nothing, I know I know it's cheesy but it's 100% true and I just needed you to know that" Charlie stopped crying, looked at me kinda like he saw a ghost then said "You really feel that way" I smile and laugh "OF COURSE I DO, all I think about is OUR future not mine OURS my future is us that's all I need in life." Charlie smiles and then starts crying again, I say "Why are you crying Charlie did I say something wrong" He wiped the tears off his face and responded "No you didn't say anything wrong I just can't believe you feel that way about me, I can't believe anybody loves me that why. I always thought about you that way.. but I just feel like a burden so I never thought someone could be cable of loving me that much" my heart already broke earlier but it's shattered now, I knew Charlie's self confidence was low but I didn't know how bad it really was until this very moment. "Charlie I would do anything for you and I know that it's hard for you to think that your cable of being loved but you need to relise how much I love you and care, so that we can work together as a team and help fight these struggles together, you'll never need to fight alone again if you just let me in." He hugged me tight for awhile before saying "I promise I'll let you in, I really need your help I can't do it alone" Before I could respond he said "Nick I gagged myself... and I feel so much regret now but in the moment it felt like the only solution i'm sorry " I knew he had done that cause I heard him throwing up earlier plus I already had the idea that he was going to do that, but he finally is letting me in and that's what mattered right now. I then said "Char I know, I heard you and it's ok but next time this isn't going to happen because i'm going to make sure it doesn't" he snuggled up to me I was holding on to him so tight I felt like I never wanted to let go. Hearing Charlie cry and feeling him shake in my arms made my rage for David grow. If david thinks he's getting away with this he's mistaken...

Authors note
Hey guys I hope you all are still enjoying my book so far I have lots planned as long as you all are still enjoying it, my school year is ending soon and I want to start doing some one shots as well as continuing my daily updates for this book what do you think about me doing a separate story for one shots?❤️❤️🫶