Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter Fifty Five Double date

TW mention of self harm

Nicks perspective
I open the door for Charlie as I always do, before he climes into the passengers seat. My heart flutters and I feel a warmth when he's with me in the car, this morning driving the car to pick up the rings I almost felt scared without him, alone. I've always felt kinda scared and anxious when i'm not with Charlie but this past few days I feel like I can't even be away from him for a second. When I went and picked up the flowers the other day my hands were trembling and I couldn't take my mind off Charlie not even for a second. This was normal when you loved someone there was nothing else going on... right? I need to stop overthinking things and focus on our first plan for the day, our double date with Tori Spring and Micheal Holden.

Charlie's perspective
I'm sitting in the car in the passenger side of our jeep thinking about where he's taking me and what we're doing. I'm so great full to have such an amazing boyfriend that will plan a whole day for us so we can spend quality time together, spending quality time together was Nicks favourite thing ever, come to think of it when were not at work were like never apart. I cuddle up to Nick and and say "Can you tell me where we're going yet i'm getting impatient" he smiles down at me "I'll give you a hint, only because I love you" I know this may sound childish but every time he says I love you I can't stop myself from blushing a little along with that whooshing in my stomach and the increased speed of my heart pumping up and down. No matter how many times he says it the feeling remains the same, the same exact feeling I got when he said I love you for the first time. "Charlie you zoned out and you look like your almost drooling" I blush intensely now "I was just thinking about how much I love you" he smiles like a kid in a candy store then says well poking my cheeks and stomach trying to make me laugh "So you do have a crush on me, yes the hottest guy in all of England fancies me" I can't help myself but laugh he was so happy just being around me. Me boring old me I, definitely don't see myself the way he sees me but if he loves me this much maybe i'm not as bad as I think. "Ok ok I'll admit it I fancie you like a lot but don't forget you promised me a hint" he turns to look at me with a smirk "hmm I don't think I want to give you a hint anymore you look kinda cute when your mad" I laugh knowing that I can change his mind really quick "Ok fine I change my mind no kisses or cuddles for the rest of the car drive" he stops laughing immediately "Wow no need to be hasty, we've never been to one together but we've both gone to one before" This was hard me and Nick have been together for so long now and have gone to so many places together I can't think of many things we haven't done together that we've both done before. I tickle him and say "I won't stop tell you give me a better hint" he squirms and try's to get away from me but he can't "I'm driving for god sake Charlie but fine you went to one five years ago for a school field trip" Who does Nick think I am Albert Einstein I can't remember what field trips I went on in high school. "Nice hint" I say in a sarcastic tone, accepting my fait that i'll just have to wait and see for myself.

A few minutes go by and I spot a large amusement park and then Nick pulls into the parking lot, for the first time in a long time I didn't feel worried or anxious about being in a setting with food everywhere, i've been really working on getting better for me and Nicks future, and i'm actually improving. Although eating here might be intimidating I want to try. Nick then said as we parked "I also have another surprise" I run into his arms to hug him "Nick this is amazing i'm really excited, I don't need another surprise" he then kisses the top of my head and says "are you sure" then he points behind me and when I turn around I see Tori she had been on a business trip for a few weeks and it was my first time relapsing without her I've always thrived off her support and really struggled without her. I ran over to her and hugged her tight she didn't hug me back because she only hugs people when she thinks it's necessary "Charlie don't be a drama king it's only been a few weeks" I didn't say anything but I didn't stop hugging her ether I needed her. When I finally let her go she had locked her eyes on my wrist immediately I mean I don't blame her the cut was massive, very deep and I was wearing a T shirt. She doesn't say anything then she springs forward and hugs me tighter and more passionately then she ever has before "Charlie can we talk for a second" She pulls me by the hand away from Michael and Nick trying not to embarrasse me in-front of them when in fact they both obviously know. "Charles that's not ok, I've never seen such a cut on someone's wrist EVER" I look down avoiding eye contact with her i'm speechless. "I think you need to go to a mental hospital again" Those words made me sick to my stomach I never want to go back there, I never want to be in that my mind set again. "Trust me Tori it's not necessary" she looks at me in angry "What do mean it's not necessary look at your bloody wrist your lucky your not in the hospital right now" I look down at my wrist shamefully then respond "I know how this looks but long story short I broke a glass I was having a terrible day then when I was picking up the glass I felt the sharp tip and I cut my wrist but I never intended to kill myself or go that deep it's just the glass was so sharp and when I dragged it across my skin it tore it open I didn't know that would happen, Tori I promise i'm really trying to get better now." She hugged me again and said "Ok let's go have now but Charles don't ever do that again" I nod my head in agreement.

Authors Note
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