Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter Twenty The Flight

Nicks perspective
Charlie was holding my hand and we boarded the flight I hated flights, honestly it was really embarrassing. I tried to look as calm as possible but I could feel my hands sweating and my face red hot. Charlie talked to the nice flight attendant, handed her our tickets , then we proceeded to board the plane. I wiped my hands off on my pants and grabbed Charlie's hand once again "You nervous" he quickly mutters I just nod and he squeezes my hand tight. I felt a bit relieved that david and his girlfriend weren't sitting too close to me and Charlie I think Charlie felt the same way. We made our way to our seats and sat down Charlie said that he thinks it would be better if I sat by the window and I agreed. He leaned his head on my shoulder and rested there then he pulled out his air-pod case and handed me one air pod. We had been in the air for around 30 minutes and it was starting to kick in... my anxiety about being trapped on this plane with no escape made my mind go crazy and my hands shake I clenched my fists tight to stop the shaking. I could hear my heart beating so fast and hard it sound like a bowling ball hitting the ground, I almost was scared my heart was going to burst out of my chest.

Charlie's perspective
I was lying my head on Nicks shoulder trying to get comfortable I always wanted to be as close as possible to Nick it's a good thing we're both very clingy I think thats one of the reasons we're such a good couple, we constantly want to be with each other. We are each other's whole world. I knew Nick was very anxious but it was getting worse his heart was pounding I could hear it very prominently. I take the air pod out of my ear and take it out of his and say "Nick look at me" he glance's over to me. "Are you ok" he still looks very stunned then reply's "Umm yea I guess i'm just feeling trapped" I didn't know what to do in this situation because when Nick usually felt claustrophobic we would go in a nice long walk just the two of us. I then say "Babe what can I do to help" He just says "Nothing, i'll be ok Charlie" I grab his head pulling it on my shoulder so he could rest on me and hopefully fall asleep. His body shortly after started to relax and then he fell asleep. His heart rate finally dropped down to normal witch put me at ease but then I noticed that his hands were still clenched in a fist, I gently opened his hand up so I could hold it. Once I opened it I saw his hands had deep red indents in them from him squeezing them so hard. I've never seen Nick so upset and anxious before I knew exactly what he was feeling like 9/10 times I was ethier upset or anxious about something weather it's eating, hanging out with our friends, family etc... I felt like I was failing at being a good boyfriend because he was so anxious I felt like I could have done more to prevent him from feeling so anxious. I've never really felt like this was before it didn't feel good I was blaming myself for something that essentially wasn't my fault, was this how Nick felt constantly having to be my emotional support. Was I making him feel awful when I felt awful all the time. This thought floated around in mind for awhile then came David he was on his way to the bathroom and passed by us he took one look at Nick sleeping on me and said "Remember you guys no having sex on the plane" he chuckled and headed to the bathroom. I really didn't want to cause a scene and most importantly wake Nick, he had been asleep for a while and I wanted him to stay that way so he wouldn't feel anxious anymore so I kept my mouth shut. I just rolled my eyes and ignored his idiotic comment. Like was he an idiot or something gay people don't just go around f ucking where ever they want, what a homophobic moron. we had been on this plane for a few hours and Nick was still asleep but then he woke up and lifted his head off my shoulder. There was a big puddle of drool on my shirt I didn't even realize until he said "Omg Charlie you should have woke me I drooled all over your shirt" I smiled at him and softly replied "Do you really think I care if there's drool on my shirt, I was just happy you slept through most of the flight so you didn't feel anxious" he blushes and says "I love you" I say "I love you too" then I grab his hand and flip it over so I can see his the inside of his palm and then say "Nick you were clenching your fist so tight that you left super deep indents there still here after a few hours are you ok"

Nicks perspective
I look down at my hands and he was right they still were really red and the indents were very visible I could feel them being sore now but in the moment I couldn't, now Charlie really knew how anxious I had been, I felt really vulnerable but safe with him. I replied "Oh I didn't really realize I had been pressing that hard" Charlie grabs my hand and rubs my hand softly around the the sore areas. I snuggled up to him again and felt safe in his arms then I felt myself dozing off again....

Authors Note
Not much to say today except I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!! ❤️❤️❤️💕💕💕 and Nick and Charlie they are just so cute!!!!