Every time I close my eyes, I can hear it;
With every breath, I can taste it;
And I can feel it with every heartbeat.
No matter what I do, I can't escape it.
What's wrong with me?
Mom, how do I tell you..
That there's a fire burning inside of me?
I can feel it raging like a demon searching..
Hunting for me.. because I'm its next victim.
I can hear it roaring like it's in pain;
Screaming, yelling, begging, pleading..
Trying to lure me in so it can feast.
Dad, where did you go? I needed you..
Will you finally be there for me?
I don't wanna live like this..
Feeling broken.. like I'm never good enough
I don't wanna be unwanted or unloved.
Big Brother, I don't understand..
Why did you do this to me??
All the times you tortured me;
Now your words are stuck in my head..
"You'll never be good enough"
"You're broken, and no one wants broken."
Little Brothers, I can only hope that you never know
What it's like to silently suffer from the inside out.
To feel like you're hollow.. like your soul is trapped in a neverending fire.
Ex Lover, I'm sorry;
But you couldn't save me from this.
I'm trapped in a hell I made for myself.
I honestly didn't want you to know..
My sins are ripping me apart..
I'm just barely able to put myself back together,
Only for me to be torn apart and burned all over again..
Leaving nothing but soot and ash behind.
And though I keep begging, pleading for help;
I know that I have to save myself..
That's the only way to be completely free.
So, to all of those who believe in me,
Thank you, and I'm sorry;
I'm sorry for constantly letting you down.
YOU ARE READING
The Hidden Darkness
PoetryI honestly don't know what to put here.. I decided to write a book, and so I wrote these poems. I know that they aren't very good, but at least I tried.. right?? 😅😅😅
