Dear Myself,
I want to say 'I love you' instead of 'I hate you!'
I want to love your hair.. greasy or not..
The way you look in everything..
I want to love you from head to toe and every inch in between.. but I don't think I can.
I wish I could stop seeing everything wrong with you,
And tell you that I'm proud of you and who you are..
That you are a great, kind, and amazing person..
Instead, I yell cruel and hateful things at you.
I spit out your name like spitting venom from my lips..
I yell things like 'you're the ugliest thing to ever exist!'
'Why are you here? Why are you still alive?? Just die!'
I yell these, or worse.. so much, that they're etched into your skin..
You wear hateful words as if they'are scars..
Scars that are designed and disguised as tattoos on your soul
I continuously scream, shout, and yell all the worst..
And yet you bury, hide, and burn all of your pain away.
Because you'd rather die, than let others see you hurt!
The ones you love just want you to be happy and okay..
Hell, even you long to be that way again!!
You just hear your brothers and your bullies,
Telling you the same lies over and over..
That you're fat, ugly, disgusting, a freak, and worse..
You created me to only see your flaws..
But this is the last time that you utter hate-filled words
I'm done.. I'm quitting my job as you inner voice.
I can't and will not watch you slowly fade away!
YOU ARE READING
The Hidden Darkness
PoetryI honestly don't know what to put here.. I decided to write a book, and so I wrote these poems. I know that they aren't very good, but at least I tried.. right?? 😅😅😅
