Electric Love || Bucky Barnes X OC

Chapter 10

Mia's POV...

I left Bucky's room and I just wanted to cry. He'd been so nice to me today and I let myself mistake it for care. For a minute I thought he was feeling the same thing I was feeling, this weird draw to him that keeps bringing me back. As much as I don't want to like Bucky, I keep thinking about him and I can't focus with him around. To avoid running into Natasha and having to answer any questions, I went to take a shower. What could he have possibly done that would make him so sure that I would hate him for it? I'm going to have to confront Tony because I hate that everyone else knows this big secret about my dad and Bucky but I have no idea. I hate being left out of the loop. Before I started scrubbing down I took a few minutes to silently cry to myself. Going on this mission today was the first time I've felt right or like I belonged in a very long time but at what cost? Having to live next to someone who hates me and is apparently evil? Putting up with Tony trying to play dad after not trying for so long? Playing the part to date Steve and at least know I have a safe place and someone who wants me around? But what's the alternative? Go back to my old life and find a job as an engineer but spend every day wondering if I could've been more. The other issue with being an Avenger is that my options for love and friends become very limited. There's no one in this compound that I could see myself settling down with and living with for the rest of my life. Despite my failure of a father, I do still want to have kids of my own and a life. It's a complicated set of feelings. Wanting to be a hero and to do good but also wanting a life with a family and kids. I pushed down my feelings and finished my shower. Natasha was sitting on the bed, waiting for me. "How are you feeling after the mission?"

"Fine, I'm a little surprised by how well if went honestly."

"What did Bucky talk to you about on the way home?"

"Nothing special, he just wanted to go over how everything went." I shrugged

"Why do I not believe that?"

"Because you have trust issues?" I suggested with a smile

"Well yes but I also just don't believe you. He didn't let you go anywhere by yourself and he protected you, didn't he."

"Well yeah but it's the same he would've done for anyone else on the team."

"Maybe but it proves that you're part of the team and that he cares at least a little."

"Probably just because he thinks I'm with Steve and that's his best friend."

"You seem annoyed about the fact that people would care for you and protect you because of Steve?"

"Well, I don't want people only to like me or care for me because I slept with Steve."

"Trust me, at least for Bucky, if he even tolerates you then it isn't for Steve's sake. It took forever for him to warm up to Sam even with Steve begging for them to get along. But I guess that doesn't matter because you won't give him a chance."

"I gave him a chance."

"No, you went on one date with him."

"Can we talk about anything other than Steve please?"

"We're talking about Bucky."

"Yeah not him either."

Eventually, I convinced her to let me sleep since we'd be leaving early tomorrow to return to the compound. I think I lucked out that my first mission was shortened by Nat doing the recon for where to find the weapons. One day wasn't so bad but if Nat's guess was right I'd be spending too much time with Bucky and Sam.

The next day...

I avoided eye contact or conversation with Bucky on the way home and made my way back to my room immediately. No one followed me or tried to talk to me for a while. Eventually, there was a knock on my door and I begrudgingly went to open it. Steve was standing there with his hands in his pockets and a big smile on his face. "Hey."