Electric Love || Bucky Barnes X OC

Chapter 11

The next morning I headed over to join Tony and Pepper in their section of the compound for breakfast. Since he built the compound he got the advantage of having basically his own house within it. The smell of breakfast wafting down the halls is about the only thing that carried my feet forward, that and getting to see Pepper. As soon as I knocked she pulled the door open and greeted me with a big hug before ushering me into the kitchen. "Do you want some coffee, sweetie?"

"Sure, that'd be great."

"Your dad will be down shortly, he woke up a little late. He was in his lab late last night trying to work on something but I'm not sure what."

"That's okay, I don't mind just talking to you for a little bit before I get dragged to his lab."

"How's everything going? Tony said you had a date the other night."

"Yeah with Steve and it was technically fine but I just don't think he's it for me. Maybe I'm insane to complain about roses and sweet gestures. He's not what I want and I think it would be unfair to both of us to pretend it is."

"It would be and you can complain about or dislike whatever you want without being insane. Is there someone else who you maybe like more?"

"I've only been here for just over a week so not really."

"I'm just going to tell you that I talked to Natasha and she thinks you and Bucky have a thing for one another."

"Nope, we don't even like each other as people. We're getting on better but still not great and plus he hates me for just being related to Tony."

"Hate and love are two very close things, you know."

"What happened with him and Tony?"

"You have to ask your dad that, he needs to be the one to tell you."

I chewed on my lip for a long moment while I thought about asking Pepper something kinda crazy. "But if I did want to do anything with Bucky, even if it was just...well physical, would that be insane? Would Tony hate me?"

"You would not be insane. You're so young, Mia and you have to experience things to figure out what you want in life. You can't do that if you don't put yourself out there. As for your dad, he'd probably be mad for a number of reasons but he could never hate you. You'll always be his little girl."

"What if you and he have a daughter one day, then would I still be?"

"Yes, sweetie. He loves you so much more than you know and I promise you that. He never stopped thinking about you or talking about you, even when he wasn't around. There are things that no one has told you but I think you should know but I won't interfere with your relationship with Tony. Just know that even when he wasn't there for you, he wanted to be and he followed every accomplishment or success you've ever had. He never wanted to leave you or stop being your dad but quite frankly Mia, shits complicated."

"I wish he'd treat me like an adult and just tell me everything I don't know, I can handle it. All I want is to understand why he left me, why he didn't want me. I know work was important and after the explosion in the lab, I know shit was bad for him. But it was bad for all of us and we needed him more than ever but he ran away."

"I say this with love Mia but it hasn't always been your dad who didn't want to see you. Sometimes he tried and you refused or other people refused. You can't put all the blame on him."

"I know I pushed him away but I was hurt and mad, I am still hurt and mad but I'm trying. I'm trying to let him in but it's harder than that, there's so much to forgive and overlook. There are so many things he missed and so many times I needed him. I want to have a better relationship but I just...I don't know."