Shot in the Dark: A Mick Mars X Ozzy Osbourne Story

Chapter 5- 3 Ring Crazy

Here we are, another show.... It's a 3-ring circus and THAT'S putting it mildly. We've been on tour so far 2 weeks and it FEELS like months. Among other things I've been avoiding Ozzy like the plague, but before I get into that let me back the fuck up a minute. Yes, I KNOW avoiding the subject, but anyway ya know context. Doc is getting suspicious of Nikki, which isn't a good thing not for anyone.... but Vince, Tommy and I try like hell to do what we can and by extension: Doug. Nikki's morning sickness hasn't let up, and to be honest it scares me....it really does, and Nikki cries every night and when it's just us, his band/friends.... Yes, friends. He cries in his sleep, still so very hurt and angry at Gene Simmons and we've heard rumors of Gene of course being Gene and of his 'supposed' girlfriend.... i know it's KILLING Nikki.

Nikki is even scarier being pregnant with his mood-swings, and of course it doesn't fucking help him having to hide everything, and I maintain he LOVES Gene and Gene loves him, but if I am right...if Gene cares...I don't fucking know. And since Nikki's trying like hell to do the right thing and is out of commission so to speak with Drugs and doing Crazy Shit, his fellow terror twin Tommy has taken it upon himself to be the 'super terror' if you will be acting on Nikki's behalf.... Vince sometimes joins in, but Vince is only after one thing or at least he WAS.

And that brings me back to Ozzy, damn my traitorous thoughts! It's not so much that Ozzy and I haven't interacted in one way or another, like that Crazy picture of us backstage.... sweaty & in full regalia and Ozzy, Vince and Tommy halfway to fucked up, Nikki looking like he wanted to be anywhere else but where we were, but at the same time Ozzy was in his way cheering Nikki up...Ozzy is like what I thought and not....and not, but I keep to myself.... playing guitar, blending in with the shadows, reading when I am alone...always alone.... always.

Currently, after a screaming match mainly Nikki doing the screaming, I forced him to go to a doctor for his sake and his child's and here we are in an exam room, an ultra-sound underway. Let the fun begin.... i say well think that because, I have a feeling things are about to get even crazier than they already are....and oh....my....... GOD!!!

"Well Mr. Sixx, it appears that you are carrying a set of twins which can account for the extreme morning sickness and you appearing farther along than you are." The Doctor thanks god seems to be kind, a grandmotherly type, which Nikki needs kindness and SO much more than that.

"W-What...." Nikki pales, jaw dropped.... green eyes growing murky with tears. "Oh god...oh god...." Nikki is working himself up.

"Nikki LOOK at me." Firmly, reluctantly he does so, and I soften my tone, "I know.... you're scared, you're hurting...and you feel like you are in way over your head, but you've got us...we are here for you. You will be I have no doubt an amazing mother.... All the shit you got going on, all this stress, it won't be forever. Now let's see your babies huh?"

"Mick...I...I..." Nikki stammers.

"Sixx, don't worry so much...don't go there...I know you; I know how hard that is for you." I tell him, The Doctor meanwhile is waiting patiently, concerned but my talk is enough to get Nikki to pay attention as she tells him that they are likely to both be tall and then we hear their heartbeats, Nikki starts bawling...and to be honest, I struggle to hold back tears.... even I admit it's beautiful.... but it's also something I will never have.

Finally, we leave, Nikki given something for nausea to TRY, key word there 'tries' to help, and he makes sure all is as hidden as it can be....and fuck!! Immediately upon arrival we are cornered by Doc.

"Where the fuck were you two?!"

"Fuck off, I don't owe you shit! I KNOW we ain't late for rehearsals or something!" Nikki snaps, barely keeping his anger in check, his eyes show fear, and he pales.

"Something is going on with you Sixx....and if I am right..." Here he smirks menacingly, "Well you get the picture, I don't have time for your dramatics. I will make your life HELL."

"How DARE YOU?!" Nikki hisses, fearfully desperate to not draw attention to his hidden swollen belly. Before Doc, who I think is fixing to hit Nikki and I step in front of Nikki protecting him...Doug mercifully shows up.

"Leave Nikki the fuck alone! You've done ENOUGH damage....and oh DOC?" Doug snaps his fingers and out of the shadow's steps...COPS? "I've been at this for a while, collecting evidence.... you are FUCKED.... this, is the least you deserve." Doc is hauled off kicking and screaming and it seems to add fuel to the turmoil mine and otherwise.... Ozzy comes into view, but I ignore him, and ask Doug...

"Why?"

"He's been pulling strings with you guys, screwing you out of money and he knows or figured out that Sixx is pregnant. I had to do something." Here Doug whispers, while Ozzy soothes Nikki who is shaken and in tears. "That's one threat gone and believe me you I am making sure it fucking sticks....as for Simmons? That asshole...he hasn't come to terms with his feelings. Now go take care of Nikki." Doug says some words to a relieved Nikki, but Nikki's look is knowing but is filled with such sorrow, I believe he knows that Doug mentioned Gene to me.

"I doubt somehow, we've seen the true extent of the damage Doc has done yet." I mutter to myself, before steeling myself and walking over to Nikki. "Come on Sixx, let's get you resting before sound check and all, ok?"

Nikki nods mutely, and Ozzy falls into step with us as we make our way....and I am very much aware of Ozzy's presence, though I am trying not to be, but again he surprises me staying with me, I mean with Nikki as we get Nikki settled and laid down, armed with ginger ale and some stuff that will hopefully help him and he drops off to sleep.

"He's had a hell of a day and so have you from the looks and sounds of it." Ozzy remarks, following me as I walk to my dressing room, great. I don't get why he's talking to me....and of course it's about Nikki.

"I guess so." I shrug, this doesn't satisfy him.

"Why do you have to be SO bloody difficult to talk to? Like I don't know you've been avoiding me Mick Mars." I freeze.

"Because I have the job of being the 'father'/ 'mother' of the band! Nikki isn't the only one who has a lot on his plate right now! I fucking doubt we've seen the true extent of the damage Doc has done.... there are so many more people for you to talk to, besides some 'old man', besides me. No one wants to talk to me outside of Vince, Nikki, and Tommy." I snap, Ozzy looks taken aback.... wait did I just open up a little? And the look in those expressive eyes, which are wide unnerve me.

"I just thought you hated me." Ozzy murmurs before looking at me again. "I like talking to you. You seem to be an intelligent fellow, different.... that's not a bad thing." His look grows confused for a moment and then he grows anxious. "I've gotta go..."

I scoff, "Yeah you gotta go.... this is EXACTLY what I was talking about." Crossing my arms, muttering under my breath. Ozzy left, I didn't think he heard me...he DID, I figured I did like everyone else, scared him off.... i didn't know at the time, he was seeing HER.... running to HER. I didn't get it then, didn't see.... he'd come to realize things on some level.... but there was always the conflict...the emotional conflict.

I curl up in the floor, in a ball despite the pain in my back....and I find myself sobbing.... sobbing.... not wanting to admit why.... it's not just the stress from all that's going on and for fear of the future....... it's not.

A/N: Is it over with Doc? At least as far as the strings being pulled.... we shall see. I can tell you he will be behind bars for a long time. But there is fallout to come....and someone just may find Nikki and that WON'T go well.... stay tuned. and the tensions between Mick and Ozzy, oh things are really going to get much more exciting.