Shot in the Dark: A Mick Mars X Ozzy Osbourne Story

Chapter 54: Tender Oz & Care- (Ozzy) (Hospital Visit)

When I'd done that blasted interview, I'd felt strongly I shouldn't have left Mick at the time, but he maintained that he'd be fine.... could look after the girls, but of course he wasn't and hadn't been for a while. And I despite my misgivings went to my interview and all I wanted the whole time was to get back to Mick, looking back wish I'd just said 'fuck it' and stayed, but in any case....i called after, the phone rang and rang....and it only made me feel worse, more scared and the voices of my crying little girls, telling me their mother was really sick and out of it, that they were trying to make him 'fee betta' and I could hear Mick in the background, crying and groaning....my heart dropped, I told my girls to stay with him and I'd be coming home, and get help. Luckily, I called the Simmons-Sixx household, and they came running. Then came the shock of our lives, turns out Mick was indeed pregnant and not only pregnant but with triplets and things were that much harder on him especially.... but I was determined to be there, be his support....

Mick has without warning just fallen asleep, and I frantically alert a nurse who after checking assures me he is ok, and I am staying with him tonight...no argument and I am brought a cot or some bedding and soon resume my post at this side, holding his hands.

The tears they come, "Firefly....my firefly. I never expected this to happen like this. I feel like I keep hurting you, though that's not true. I am s-scared to lose you...I've nearly lost you twice now almost forever, but as scared as I am... all I do know is this: I am with you, always...I will be right there. Unlike last time, I am here from the beginning whether I knew it or not. I know this isn't easy Mick, especially on you, but we'll get through it. You are my alien....my everything, my world....as are ALL of our children. Sleep as much as you need to my love, though honestly that scares me shitless too." I am in a puddle of tears at this point and can feel myself trembling a bit. I kiss his hands gently before smoothing back his hair, he stirs ever so slightly. "I love you." I whisper kissing his lips gently, lingering unable to help myself as I then move my cot as close to him as I can get and as I lye here, I make sure I hold one of his hands....and somehow, I manage to fall into an uneasy sleep....

I am woken up by a strange sound....or sounds, the unmistakable sound of tears.....it seems to be dark out still and I realize too, I hear retching as my brain kicks in as I realize my husband is heaving his guts out....i hold his hair back and do what I can to soothe him, internally panicking.

"Mick, firefly.... i know this bloody well sucks ass but it won't last forever, and I PROMISE YOU, I will be here every-step of the way. Despite everything you are still doing this for me and I cannot tell you how much that means to me or how I fall in love with you more and more every passing moment, as especially I know something of what its like to lose you."

Mick finishes for now at least puking and refuses to say a word or look at me crying, no sobbing burying his face in my chest.

"Come on love, let's get you cleaned up and back to sleep yeah?" My husband ventures to look at me, looking so LOST. My heart breaks for him, "You don't have to say a word...save your strength all right?" A nod at this, his eyes darken. I am as calm as I can to help him clean his mouth out and finally, he speaks, telling me quietly he's craving soda bread and mint jelly. I am very reluctant to leave him....

"Oz..." He croaks, "Y-You don't h-have to.....I....just...." A gentle finger to his lips.

"I know." Quietly, "I want to and I am going to take care of you and that my love is all there is to it." I kiss him gently and he falls back asleep and I burst into tears at the thought of leaving, but my husband wants his cravings so he will get them, I let a nurse on duty know and to check on my husband and as quickly as I can I rush to the house and despite it being middle of the night I make the bread and jelly, pack it and rush back to find a very exhausted Mick who looks at me tearfully but gratefully as I hand him his cravings, him tearfully eating and the moment he is done he falls back asleep.

"I wish I could take away your fear, your sorrow.... Your pain Mick. Sleep well.... I'll be here when you wake, watching over you." I whisper, before kissing him gently and getting back in my cot, my hand reaching out for his.......

Time passes and it is later the same day.....afternoon, Mick slept a really long time and demanded after another bout of morning sickness to walk the halls a wee bit, I didn't fight him...long that is and made damn sure he rested if he needed it and then I put him back in bed and I inform him that I'd checked on the girls and Nikki and Gene said that Vince and Jake E. Lee were bringing them as they were going to keep them a bit, as too they were going to rotate between everyone until Mick is cleared to go home which I can tell my husband dreads with a vengeance.

"Ozzy?" Mick whispers, tentatively and I start panicking as I notice he IS panicking...quick as a flash I hold him carefully, being mindful of our babies and speaking of which I cradle his stomach housing our triplets, gently and firmly rubbing it as Mick runs his fingers thru my hair. "I-I am sorry I have barely talked to you...it...it is just HARD. I am so scared.... this won't be easy to tell the girls and...and the triplets w-will need so much attention and...and I feel like I am neglecting Angel and Michelle! My morning sickness is severe, my nerves are fucking shot! And I..."

"BREATHE." Firmly before I soften my tone, "Don't be sorry Mick....it's not something you can turn on or off, nor help. And I know how scared you are, all this KILLS me to see you suffer so. I agree it won't be easy perhaps to tell our daughters, they like me are scared to lose you but Mick they love you dearly as do I. And yes, the triplets will need a lot of attention, we can do this and do this together. Now, rest up a bit and our daughters are coming to see you soon and you aren't, nor could you ever neglect them." Still rubbing my husband's swollen stomach, now though his hands join mine.

"THANK YOU." Mick whispers and that says it all to me, him being to overcome to actually say it, but I get his meaning loud and clear. "Y-You think I should t-talk to...our three youngest?" Unsurely.

"Yes my love, I believe you should....it will help I promise and both of us will talk to our youngest precious angels."

My words earn me one of my husband's priceless smiles which he usually only bestows upon me, our daughters, and our family.

"My three little angels....my little ones. It's mommy, I am so SORRY. I am Sorry that I haven't talked to you before now and that I am going through hell, which I gladly go thru for the three of you and your older sisters and your beloved father, who I couldn't do this without. The point is I love the three of you dearly, more than my life! Same with your sisters. Angel and Michelle are their names, and Nick and Sophie.... Aunt Nikki, Uncle Gene...Aunt Vince and Uncle Jake is coming......everyone is and we none of us ever must go thru hell alone, ever."

My husband's words have not only me in tears, but him as well. Gently I kiss his swollen stomach, laying him back before then kissing his lips and I am told before long, our family is here.

"Mick...."

My husband's look and tone is knowing, "I know. You'll come back to me....and I have missed our girls."

I will always come back to you my beloved alien...my heart....my world.

A/N: A rough time for Mick, Ozzy thought right by his side. And next chapter Angel and Michelle will visit, along with their family and sadly things will be rough for more Mick for a while, but he thru it all will know nothing but love and support, for it won't be easy....