Shot in the Dark: A Mick Mars X Ozzy Osbourne Story

Chapter 30: One Step Closer to You

I remember very clearly, the day we explored our new house...'OUR', that was huge and a much loved and needed step in mine and Ozzy's relationship, learning to be a couple, what it was like living together, doesn't mean there weren't arguments...but NOTHING like prior to us becoming partners, more like disagreements that mainly stemmed from my mood swings i.e., Anyway, back to our house exploration....Ozzy guided me thru out the first floor, my favorite room was the kitchen not gonna lie, especially since Ozzy was so animated....and then a room that Ozzy planned to turn into a recording studio, he called it 'The Boneyard' and that way if he or Mӧtley Crϋe had to record we could do it at our home. Upstairs, was stunning...our bedroom and I mentioned to Ozzy how I'd love to decorate it, blending our tastes together. And then there was the baby's room, our Angel. Just across the hall, perfect in other words, and it turns out, we had a pool patio that was inside the house, so we could go swimming in any season. Time passed, a month to be exact....and I only grew ever rounder for our daughter and in fact, well aside from the obvious spinal issues I have...was a bit of a concern for me especially as my doctor said I was bigger than usual.... i didn't give a fuck, Angel was healthy.... that's all I knew then....

Here i am five months pregnant and it's been a fucking whirlwind, and I only worried for Ozzy and that he'd regret everything and that it was too much for him, but I was WRONG. He got help from our friends, our family with everything: Moving, painting etc..... The priorities are room-wise: our bedroom, the nursery, the studio, and the kitchen. However, most things we needed done got done in record time. Ozzy never failed to make time for us, he hasn't I mean...for us to have time for ourselves and of course, sweet moments with him cuddling my growing baby bump.... He loves her so much, as do I.

But ah yeah, currently It's Me, Nikki, Tommy, and Vince in our home studio....as we'd been recording some songs for 'Theater of Pain', Nikki demanded to do so.... but we demanded back that he take it easy and rest, and he agreed grudgingly...of course, I've been just as stubborn so I can't fault him, and we are done for the day, now waiting on our partners to come collect us...Gene is here, upstairs apparently helping with the nursery along with everyone else and so Vince, Nikki , Tommy and I are making conversation and Tommy and Vince are fussing over Nikki and I like there's no fucking tomorrow....

"You guys look exhausted.... We should go get Oz and Gene. Need anything?" Tommy says at 100 mph and then Vince joins in...

"Yeah, you guys need lots of sleep, we have tried to tell you the album shit can wait and all. I---" I cut Vince off, I know he means well but...

"Vince.... Tommy..." Warningly snapping at them, my hands rubbing my swollen stomach before I burst into tears once more embarrassed at my mood-swings. I wave off Vince and Tommy both, who reluctantly back off and I calm down Angel as usual moving all over the place, pausing here and there to kick at me, making my stomach jump...I rub some more, and she begins to calm. "You're right and we will.... i am surprised Nikki hasn't murdered either of you yet." I deadpan fucking with them, "He isn't as nice as I am." Smirking now.

"Whatever you two are scarier and more stubborn being pregnant, "Vince grumbles. Nikki who is sitting next to me, hands on his very swollen stomach smirks widely, Vince pales.

"Just wait till you Give Jake kids, same for Tommy.... it'll happen." Nikki practically sings songs, and I burst into laughter. And it is at this moment, I catch a flash of something on his hand and I narrow my eyes and then they widen.

"Nikki?" I question and Nikki nods, smiling...yes smiling and eagerly spills to beans flashing his hand to us all.

"Gene asked me to marry him last night...it fucking floored me.... I mean I know how much he loves me, but it was unexpected. He took me on a picnic, candles.... food, you name it. But I am SO happy we're getting married! And the ring is a black band, with rubies and diamonds...perfect as it goes well with both our personalities. Gene has a matching one....and of course Nick and Sophie are going to have his last name...and... and." Nikki continues to rattle away, happy. And I drift back into my thoughts:

I am so happy for him, he deserves it...more than deserves it: Happiness and Gene is absolutely devoted to Nikki, this was an unexpected surprise but an amazing one....and Ozzy and I, have truly even with all that's been going on formed a deeper bond....but, there is still the FEAR...the fear I wont survive the birth, and that nightmare I'd had will come true...and then there's the weight gain, I tell myself I am fine with it, Angel is growing but it bothers me too. I just hope that Ozzy and I make it...i hope I make it. I find I very much want to live.

Great...now I'm feeling overwhelmed again! I need Ozzy, but he's busy and I...

It seems everyone has noticed my increasingly panicked state, tears roll down my cheeks and frantically I think someone calls for Ozzy...

"N-No... No..." I protest weakly, trying to ground myself.... running footsteps and I am next thing I know surrounded by Citrus and Spice and I CLING to Ozzy, with all my might. "S-Scared O-Ozz...scared." I managed to get out.

"Mick calm down, firefly.... breathe.... listen to the sound of my voice all right?" Ozzy's voice is firm but gentle, he kisses me letting me feel him and rubs my swollen stomach till I calm enough to talk, or I would but I am exhausted....and next thing I know is I find myself in our bedroom, my lover, notices I am with it now...or with it somewhat.

"The b-Baby, ok? Their ok right Oz?" Fearfully. I feel his arms around me, him guiding my hands to my stomach and together our hands entwine, and I feel lots of movement...but calm movements.

"Talk to me firefly...though I know EXACTLY what it is." Ozzy's voice cracks at that as he carefully rests his chin on the crown of my head.

"I just...got to feeling overwhelmed again Ozzy, I fear I won't survive this, the birth....and the weight gain, Doctor says its fine.... that Angel is fine. I just can't help it." My voice is small.

Gently I feel my face tilted to where I am looking into Ozzy's oh so expressive eyes, which are shiny with tears.

"I know my love, I know...I have those same fears. I can't LOSE you again, our baby again...and I heard you didn't want to bother me, firefly you could NEVER bother me. I am here always and I fucking promise you, I won't let anything happen to you...not anymore, and as for the weight gain? Our baby is growing happily and healthily in you, in YOU.... you're taking a risk with your life, your health for US....and if you are wondering everyone left to give us time but are worried about you.... now you really need to sleep Mick." Ozzy gently kisses me, before then kissing my swollen belly and then as exhausted as I am I am hungry, so Ozzy brings me my favorite soda bread with raspberry marmalade and some ham, and I wolf everything down and fall sleep quickly afterwards.

-Ozzy POV-

Mick has just fallen asleep, after eating his cravings and I find I can't leave him, nor do I want to. I can still feel Angel move, so I am gently rubbing Mick's stomach to keep her calm.

"I wish I could take away your mother's fears, that I could protect him...I'd do anything to take away his pain. But know that he and I love you so much, and we can't wait to meet you. Hmm, your mum wants to name you Angel.... need a middle name..." I pause a moment in thought and of course I am whispering, "Michelle...that will be your middle name after your mother, it's the female version of 'Mick'. I can feel you...always moving all over the place, constantly. Taking after daddy, darling let your mother get some rest...you need rest too, ok?" I continue to rub Mick's stomach and I can feel her calm, and I decide to slip in under the covers and Mick automatically scoots closer to me, burrowing into me as he can.

"I Love you Mick....my beloved Queen of Darkness, MY firefly." I whisper before I join my family, my loves in sleep.

A/N: Did you catch the hints of an idea I am planning? Let me know.... I can tell you it will have to do with the birth. Next chapter, a double date of sorts with the Demon, His Mate (Nikki) and the Alien and Prince of Darkness. Stay tuned!