Shot in the Dark: A Mick Mars X Ozzy Osbourne Story

Chapter 40: I've Missed You & First Meetings

The only thing I 'remember' or things I 'remembered' were blurred.... pain, screaming.... the wail of my first born, the air heavy with the metallic scent of blood. These were my 'last moments'. I spent 3 weeks asleep; my husband reluctantly and painfully told me when I finally awoke. It freaked me out, me...the Alien. Ozzy, my poor prince of darkness despite being a mess to say the least brought me back to reality, grounded me and the scent of citrus and spice invaded my senses, calming me.... i still remember to this day....and for the first time, meeting my Michelle and my Angel, my daughters. My awakening it was just Ozzy and I, and then came our girls....

EVERYTHING HURTS.... stiffer....and more sore than usual.... everything is fuzzy and fragmented....am I still alive? Sleeping? No.... maybe not.... something feels OFF, strange. There is no sense of time, of space....one thing....one sound is coming in clear.... a voice, I know SO WELL.... yet at the same time cannot place now.

"Mick....my Alien.... d-darling.... it's...its.... been so long my love since I've heard your voice, seen those hands work their magic on your guitar, I-I miss everything about you. I regret so much that's happened...please open those eyes my love...OPEN them." Sobs, I know these sobs.... everything hurts...feels heavy.... I try desperately to reach towards the sound, and I TOUCH it and it seems the voice husky from repressed tears is hopeful desperately so, "M-Mick.... d-darling is...that you? Please...please t-tell me, you're...you're really.... wake up.... PLEASE.... FIREFLY."

Firefly? Wait....

Time stops....and my senses...everything clicks...OZZY....

What happened? Why do I feel off? Wake up Mick Mars!!

I struggle, struggle to open my eyes....

"S-Slow, slow.... c'mon now love...." Ozzy and after what feels like forever, I open my eyes to find Ozzy, who looks like he's been thru the ringer...., "Mick?! I... I.... I'VE MISSED YOU." I find strong arms carefully wrapped around me, Ozzy sobbing into my neck and my slowly awakening brain trying to process things and I FREAK....as suddenly without fucking warning things come rushing back to me.

"I-I.... heard...h-heard screams...y-yours.... a cry of a ba-baby.... OH MY GOD...MY BABIES....MY BABIES!! A-are they ok? O-Oz... please....t-tell me they are ok...I AM SORRY...SO SORRY!!" I start hyperventilating and I feel I can hardly breathe; the walls are closing in... I hear vaguely nurses maybe, as right now i cannot be sure and maybe they are Wanting to give me something to calm me? And Vaguely Ozzy telling them that he's got me, I think. or is it to bugger off? 

Warm gentle hands, gentle but firm grip my face in their hands...OZZY'S hands. and that distinct scent begins to calm me, beckons to me.

"M-Mick...STOP...it...it hurts darling I know.... i KNOW....it will t-take time to heal. Michelle an' Angel needs you; I NEED you...I love you an' I am gonna marry you. If you are wondering my love, they are doing s-so well. Gaining weight, steady progress...they will be ok, they ARE. And you wondered if something'd happen to you if they'd known you. They DO Mick Mars, they do...they fall asleep to your heart, c-come back to me my Queen, come back and breathe my love.... please."

Gradually I calmed down, the monitors quit beeping loudly in alarm and I BREATHE. I am checked over, Much to Oz's chagrin as I can hear him grumbling, which God, I have missed him...so much. I am in shock when I am told I've been asleep for 3 weeks and I've almost died a couple of times since that initial 'death.'

"I've missed you Mick. More than you could ever know.... it's been bloody tough without you; I didn't want to leave your side.... and...and I feel I understand more of what I put you thru and speaking of which I cannot tell you how sorry I am I killed you...I know, I know I shouldn't blame me self and you forgive me; you have I mean.... it's just hard." Ozzy sobs.

My heart clenches as I can well imagine what agony he's endured being apart from me.

"Oz. I love you...I knew the risks, I did...I did it anyway babe for you...US. I don't regret a thing; I'd do it over and over for YOU......i saw you...I heard you.... i dreamed of you and our girls.... i-I tried so hard to get back to you my prince...I did...and I-I am here now...I am HERE."

Suddenly citrus and spice invades my senses as Ozzy kisses me like he hasn't done so in years, which is really kind of apt in a way.

"I've missed you."

"I've missed you too my love." Ozzy whispers.

"I want to see our daughters...to meet them..." I go to say more when a gentle finger is placed to my lips, and despite his tears he smiles.

"You will....and there is a surprise for you, it's a good one."

"I trust you...but please hurry your ass up. "I quip.

Ozzy laughs and cries both, "I've missed your stubborn self." Eyes soft...Ozzy turns to a nurse, who rushes to bring us our daughters and I hear.... after a seeming eternity for the first time...two very loud cries and I feel the tears come back in full force as they are wheeled in. Ozzy rises again to take over and wheels them to where I can see, and I am in awe as his strong arms cradles both Angel and Michelle as he soothes them, "Ere' now little loves...mum is awake." Ozzy carefully looks to me with a smile, "The surprise by the way is they can get milk from you, I'll help." He instructs me to pull down my gown and expose my chest as I remember how to breathe, as he helps me hold each tiny little girl to my chest, both almost instantly latching on to a nipple as they begin to feed. Michelle...I know her without Ozzy telling me, I admire each little girl as she stares up at me, but Michelle is a mixture of Ozzy and I, with his expressive eyes and my natural ginger locks. Angel....her little eyes...MY eyes....my carbon copy save for her lips, her hair a rich auburn color. I for the first time am SEEING AND FEELING MY CHILDREN.... a moment that is bitter-sweet, magical...you name it as I carefully without disturbing my daughters speak to them.

"I am sorry my little angels, that I slept for so long.... This is my first official time meeting you both and I can tell you, you both have me wrapped around your little fingers. It's an HONOR and a joy...to finally meet you. I dreamed of you Michelle and your Angel always when I slept. You never have to hide in the shadows....my dear sweet little girls, you are worth everything and I have your father to thank for giving you both to me. I love you so much."

I love the feel of them, their baby smell.... It's the most moving feeling of my life.

"You belong Mick...you belong at my side...as my love....as the mother of my children, NEVER again doubt that. We will get thru this pain...the trauma together....and did I mention? You look beyond other worldly beautiful." Ozzy's eyes are shiny with tears and carefully we kiss, me loving the feel and too the feel of two warm, so warm little girls feeding from me.

Soon, Angel and Michelle drink their fill and for the first time, I burp them with my fiancés help...and the tears they keep coming and at last, they are settled into my arms, and Ozzy carefully supports the three of us.

"Ozzy...we're parents... the two of them are so damned beautiful and small. I can't believe this is...the first time I'm meeting them. I wish...I'd...well I missed out on so much." I sigh tearfully. "We both need to quit blaming ourselves Oz, like you said we'll get thru this storm, and we'll do it together."

"Mick, I know how you well feel at this moment...and you are so right my alien. I cannot tell you how much it means to me that you did this for us.... went thru this, you are so brave...so brave. And welcome back my love...welcome back.... now you can recover, and it will be a long road, but I will be here every step of the way and when we are ready, I am going to marry you....and aw...look at them..." Ozzy trails off, and I see what he means, as Angel and Michelle drift off. I never want them to leave my arms! I never want to leave my prince of darkness, never again.... or our precious family.

A/N: Mick is awake! He and Ozzy have an emotional reunion, Mick holds and meets his twin girls for the first time and now we will begin to move on to recovery.