Shot in the Dark: A Mick Mars X Ozzy Osbourne Story

Chapter 21- Rumors Going Round'

3 months....3 months....2 since I have seen Ozzy since my world has ended and began both for obvious reasons. I am now, I can't believe 3 months pregnant...my morning sickness hasn't gone away yet (damnit!), I am struggling with that and everything else. Nikki is in much the same boat as I, except he is much more pregnant at 5 months, and he's been depressed because he hasn't done anything but come up with names as he cries about. But that's not entirely true either, because the second Tommy Lee found out or realized.... bam! Baby stuff for Nikki and me too. But I get Sixx's real meaning, he like myself feels guilty and maybe selfish too that neither of us has tried or done anything nursery wise, that we aren't taking good care of our children like we should. Again, that shits not true, we've been at least attempting to deal with the trauma that's resulted from those gods' forsaken tours, so there's the emotional and physical shit and then there's writing new songs for another album and the fallout from Doc. Just a lot on our plates.

And then there are the RUMORS going around, now Nikki and I have avoided MTV like the plague because it's inevitable that we'll see shit about the US, but moreover about Ozzy and Kiss. SO, we've been existing in a painful and hazy bubble. But ah yes, the rumors. Rumors Via newspaper, word of mouth that kind of thing...rumors of Ozzy having been on a bad bender (which when didn't he or so I thought), Ozzy going into rehab, Ozzy, and his wife at odds. Every rumor fucking hurts, because part of me feels that Ozzy even if he DID have all that going on could have tried to contact me in some way. But there's no concrete evidence, just those fucking rumors.

Then there's rumors that I have well, I've never been super social...only going out when I must...but there's rumors I am dying, that I am dead, that Ozzy and I had been sleeping together (those are actually true), rumors that I've ruined the band, rumors that Ozzy hasn't been spotted out lately, that he was in rehab and that I was the one that drove him too it....look people have always talked shit regardless of what I say or haven't said, but it's much, MUCH harder to deal with on top of being pregnant, scared of dying, worried my child will be raised by strangers...that kind of shit.

As for Nikki? Gene. Ah those rumors that have been going round about Gene.... spotted by paparazzi, looking sad.... with bags of baby clothes in hand, being secretive, rumors of the groupies, rumors of a fall out with in Kiss and of rivalry between Kiss and the Crϋe. Which brings me to this little 'gem' or 'gems': Kiss making but the apparent word in the papers is that Eric Carr apparently beat the shit out of Gene on Nikki's behalf, things were tense in their camp, and it is suspected Gene has knocked someone up, they just don't know who or rather that its NIKKI.

The one thing about all these rumors anyone can seem to agree on is that its speculation, still whether there is any truth to them we don't know, we as in Nikki and I are afraid to go out much...me even more so....so we live in a bubble practically. Sure, we get out and get air and exercise for our unborn children, but yeah....

And that brings us too now:

Nikki and I have just finished working on songs for our next album, our instrumentals.... Vince and Tommy had been over and joined in and now it's once again Nikki and I, Nikki has been upset it's hard for him to hold his bass, at least he can but he has to have help.

I feel those ever-present tears roll down my face, alerting Nikki who also stars crying....

"W-What's wrong M-Mick?"

"T-Those d-damned rumors!" I cry, "I can't DO THIS NIKKI!" I can tell I am about seriously freak the fuck out.

"Come over here fast!" Nikki urges since it's hard for him to move, quickly and carefully I do so and he wraps an arm around me and I bury my face in his chest, as he gently rubs my back calming me. Nikki sighs tearfully, "I know...the rumors about Ozzy, hurt.... We don't know for sure if they are true. And then...then there's Gene. Papers and word of mouth say he's sad, there was a fall out in Kiss, but apparently, they are still together or working things out. I heard Eric Carr, the Eric Carr beat up Gene for me...I assume once he learned what Gene has done to me....and then there's one you may not know Gene, word also is that Gene had his ass handed to him by Paul Stanley. But again, we don't know...I don't trust what I hear, I can't...if it's true.... i can't HOPE that Gene getting baby clothes is for me, for us.... why...why won't he find a way to reach out to me? Or Ozzy to you? We shouldn't have to DEAL with any of this shit!!"

Gradually both Nikki and I cry more silently and calm down, just not knowing what to believe or what to do....so we change the subject to our unborn children, Nikki asking me to remind him if I have come up with names and I answer with:

"Well, I may have forgotten if I told you.... but I really feel it's a girl. I wanna name her Angel, because no fucking lie, she is my angel...huh, an angel for an alien. Middle name I have no clue. As for a boy if on the off chance I am wrong? I don't know, I've thought of James, Jack, John. Just not sure."

"I know you and your feelings I bet you are right it's a girl and eh if not you'll figure something out for a boy.... now I am fucking starving!" Nikki goes from Zero to Sixty practically....and before I can voice my agreement I freeze, feeling something strange...fearful for a moment something is wrong.

"Nikki? Something feels all weird....no it's not my back." I whisper and speak up with, "It feels l-like something is...... Is moving."

"May i?" I nod, Nikki places his hands on my stomach and a slow smile breaks out. "Your baby is MOVING Mick.... moving...does it feel fluttery?"

"It does...it DOES." I Say in wonder crying. "Wow.... WOW....so nothing's wrong then?" Anxiously.

"Nothing is wrong.... it's right, it's all right." Softly and I relax as I continue to feel my angel's fluttery movements, this moment, or these moments so fucking bittersweet.

Nikki and I did manage to make it to the kitchen helping one another along, I've among other things in helping Nikki have by some miracle managed to teach him to cook and he'd gotten into baking as well now. Though, I made him stay off his feet as much as he'd let me, and vice versa. Literally the next day, fate would strike for Nikki that is.... Gene would find Nikki, Nikki insisted on going to the store, taking a car, and getting some needed essentials and it is THERE Nikki and Gene ran into one another. As for where I was when that happened? Well now, Vince and Tommy insisted on keeping me company.... taking me to the beach, which the air helped with my nausea tremendously, still got sick on the ride back, but still not too bad.

The point of all this is, those 'rumors' would in a sense start to bear fruit and Nikki would come to find out first before I did, I would eventually during what would be my fifth month of pregnancy and Ozzy would return at last, and I would run from him....but, he would fully see what he did and had done and THIS would lead to us beginning to work towards or steer towards working things out and ultimately becoming a couple....

A/N: We shall soon see what truths there are to the 'rumors' if you will. And next chapter two lovers shall perhaps take steps to rekindle a flame, and another special POV.... Any guesses as to who? Anyway, SO excited!!!