Shot in the Dark: A Mick Mars X Ozzy Osbourne Story

Chapter 65: Babies from Mars Part 2 (Ozzy)

I taste salt.... tears.... seems I have many...many more tears to be shed. Mick, my beloved Alien....my Queen of Darkness, once again.... I feel as if I put you in danger. But despite the storm...the fucking hurricane, you STILL put your life on the line. Your heart my alien darling...is the biggest heart I know.... still, how the hell will I tell you we have four not three? That if it wasn't for the adrenaline, two shots to the heart.... you would be here? I love ALL our children.... our four youngest...again four, trying so HARD to absorb it all. One thing above all others, is I love them dearly....and I am not alone. Mick...my husband....in what where your 'final moments', I know you were alone....i wasn't right there beside you...it KILLS me. I know your 'last' thoughts were of us and the children.... now, the nurse seems to be telling me I can see you soon...see our babies....and...oh blimey.... what you'd make of...

"FUCK!!" Vince screams, immediately feeling guilty since there are children present....and I notice a growing puddle at his feet and Jake calls for the nurse while also trying to comfort Vince and Vince manages to look at me, "S-Sorry.... i can't....be there to see...I."

"I Know, I know your daughter will be fine...I understand believe me. Don't worry about anything, you just concentrate on your daughter. I will see her mate...."

"We'll bring her to you Ozzy...go be with Mick...and your children...and we'll come see yours." Jake gives a small tearful smile and follows his husband as they take him. Turns out, Vince and Jake would name their daughter Josephine Michelle Lee. Michelle being for Mick. She was a very healthy little girl.

Tugs now on my pants...Angel and Michelle.

"Daddy Aunt Vinny have baby?"

"Yes sweetheart.....I miss....its been so..."I break down, thinking again of Mick.

"It's been one hell of a day." Tommy Lee-Sarzo remarks and how apt that is. And very bitter-sweet, both life and death.... And...This is hell...being without my beloved...waiting to see him. Wanting, needing to see him.... our children.

After an eternity, a nurse comes to fetch me so I can see Mick and our children. They take me to the NICU...my heart pounding with every step, my family following....i am told, I am still crying...but I am told, to change into a pair of scrubs...a mask and I wash my hands before I take a deep breath, hugging my oldest daughters to me.

"Tell dem' we wuv them daddy an' that mummy deaming (Dreaming) a' dem and wuvs them." Angel, states tearfully...holding her sisters' hand, young Nick I note is holding her other hand.

"Be strong daddy....we be wight here an' will see babies?" The last part Michelle utters hopefully, although tearfully.

"My loves....i will tell them...I will and they will make sure you can see. I promise." I exhale shakily, trying so damned hard to hold it together, as I enter....and I see four.... of the tiniest bundles.... i manage to ask, if they can be wheeled to where my family can see...I leave no bloody room for argument as quickly they do so.

Blimey....i thought Angel and Michelle were tiny....my four youngest even smaller, but they are ALIVE. They have to get stronger...and I hope to god they got their stubbornness from Mick....oh Mick...I wish my love so damned bad you could SEE them.

Each tiny human...precious beautiful.... hooked to 1000 wires, oxygen...meds to help their little lungs....and my tears start anew. My surprise son....a surprise but no less beloved...is pointed out to me and I note, that ginger hair of my husband's....and I see Mick....pure Mick in looks. I slowly....reach out thru one of the openings in the special incubator and grasp his tiny hand, delicately...he whines.

"Shh...shh...it will be ok. You look just like your mum...so damned beautiful. I can tell you ave' his spirit. You feel like Robert.... Robert John. I wanted to name you after your beloved mother, and you have my name...so you'll always have a part of me and your mum with you. I love you...and I am SO sorry I didn't know..." I am taking a shuddering breath. "That you were there.... never hide Robert.... never." His little eyes open.... Mick's eyes. I spend some time with Robert and I turn to my other children...my other son, Les Paul....is a combo of both Mick and myself from looks to hair. "Les Paul...your mum wanted to name you that. It means so much to him...and to me my son...I have two beautiful sons. I love you...god, I love you."

My two youngest daughters....one looks like me made over...me with ginger hair that is.

"Azalea Rose." I breathe out.

My other daughter looks again...just like Mick, but with Auburn tinted hair...and her little eyes.... I see both Mick and I's eye color. "Johanna Iris." I sob out, feeling overwhelmed.... sad.... happy.... a mix. I glance at my family. my oldest daughters making sure everyone can see....and I speak to all four of my new born's. "All of you...you're...you're.... never doubt the lights of my life. You and your older sisters...Angel.... Michelle. they love you....as do i...with their lives, their hearts....Your dear, dear mum....gave his life...for you all. All six of you....he did it because he is stubborn, strong....and has the biggest damned heart of anyone I have ever known. He is my other half.... he is sleeping my loves.... i hate that I did this to him.... hurt him so...but he did it anyway because he loves me so much...loves all of you so much. He is my world....all of my children are....never my loves doubt that....and in time...in time the storm will pass....it wont be easy, but we---we have to try and take a shot in the dark."

I sob, shaking.... I hope, I hope.... Mick will come back to me.... he must...he has to. I carefully and safely, hold each of my new born children in turn....crying softly, wanting to do this with Mick....wanting my eldest children in here....

I exit....but not before, telling my newborns that I love them again...that their mother is dreaming of them....and that I will see them again soon.....

Hugging Angel and Michelle to me, I bury my face in their hair....trying...desperately to pull it together.

"Daddy, we see babies....Les an' Jo-Jo, an' Aza an'Rob....so tiny....they be ok daddy?" Michelle's little lip trembles.

"They are stubborn and strong like your mum.... They will be on time. Daddy will make sure." I told her. "I just miss your mum....so much.... love him so much. I love you and your siblings...all of you."

"Daddy.... mummy can hear us wight...when we see him?" Angel asks, crying.

"He can.... he can."

"Go see mummy.... we gib (Give) time...for you an Mummy...." Angel FUCKING FLOORS me with these words.

"What....darling.... you mean...." I trail off in astonishment that she means for me to spend time with her mother first before her and Michelle.

"Uh-Huh." Michelle nods in agreement.

"Girls.... that is sweet....it won't be easy to see him like that...but are you SURE?" Both touched, dreading seeing Mick as in a living death, but wanting my eldest with me all at once and understanding they too are sacrificing in their way. I hold them tighter too me; the sound of tears surrounds me...echoing.

"Send mummy wots a' luv an' kisses....it almost beddy time for us." And I realize Michelle is right.

"Ozzy we will bring them, in another day or so...tomorrow sometime maybe. We promise." Nikki states softly.

"Ok. Thank you...all of you so much." I whisper, I hug everyone sobbing....Angel and Michelle give me lots of hugs and kisses, crying all the while....Nikki telling me he took lots of pictures and will take more....and soon they are gone....and I know they will see Vince...and I hope his daughter is well and him.....i nearly collapse into a ball, stumbling. Sobbing....wondering how I have any tears left....but tears I do....as I shakily, flag down a nurse and make my way to Mick....my Queen of Darkness, my Alien....

I am coming my love....coming to warm you....coming to see you.....the sacrifice you have made....are making....I love you more and more with each passing moment....i wish my love for a miracle....i wish for you to see our children...ALL six of them now....Mick...my Mick....I am sorry...so damned sorry for putting you thru hell my love. You though, are my soulmate......my everything.... I am coming my love....i am coming to you....

A/N: Another surprise....and I can promise you Vince and Jake's baby will be ok for sure!! Poor Ozzy....and their family. tears...so many, and too the bitter-sweet. I decided to make this into four parts, as Ozzy continues to grapple with the aftermath of the birth of the quadruplets as it has turned out. Stay tuned for more.