Shot in the Dark: A Mick Mars X Ozzy Osbourne Story

Chapter 34: Midnight Love & Misery

A few weeks have passed, and I have grown ever rounder, the Doctor keeps telling me there is only one baby, but I am ever miserable...more and more. My back is ANOTHER source of anxiety, but it's a miracle it's STILL not affecting ANGEL. And now I am 6 & a half months pregnant, and I feel like I have a heavy ball attached to my thin frame, my small frame. However, it hasn't been all bad, there's my Ozzy....my beloved Prince of Darkness and my meeting and holding Nick and Sophie, Sixx's and the Demon's children. That moment was priceless, I cried...because it was precious and because I FEARED not being able to hold my own child, but still held some hope that I would. The day at the hospital though was bitter-sweet, I'd just held the twins and I started having cramps...strong ones taking my breath away, alarming everyone especially Ozzy.

Long story short, I was admitted to the hospital....it wasn't pre-term labor, apparently could have been, I don't know but all I DO know is they placed me on strict bedrest, and I spent a few days in the hospital. Not fun...but it was necessary.

Now I am back, home sweet home....and it's getting late, Ozzy had insisted on me resting, I didn't fight him on it, he's looking out for me. But I can't rest, can't fucking sleep....and its midnight. Ozzy was downstairs taking care of dishes from a late dinner and cleaning....

I start crying, head in my hands.... feeling Angel as usual move energetically, but gently...all over.

"H-Hurts...s-sorry A-Angel.... Such a mess.... can't s-sleep. "I whisper miserably. I suddenly feel several thumps against my stomach in succession, gentle ones and I place my hands on my well swollen stomach. "Y-You are trying to make me feel better. Thank you.... i love you, I just....am miserable Angel.... think I'll try and go for a walk."

With some tries, I manage to get myself out of bed.... albeit slowly, as my hands cradling my belly, I carefully make my way downstairs, sneaking past Ozzy, I figure he's worried enough right now and the next thing I know, I find myself sitting by our indoor pool. My feet in the water, the water feeling DIVINE on my feet...but I delve into my thoughts, hands on my swollen stomach.

I've had enough scares in my life and during my pregnancy especially, I love my Angel dearly, I do. But the.... those cramps, the hospital stay, me growing more and more miserable and those damned fears, fearing not to even get to hold my child when they are born, when SHE is born. The toll though this is having on my body, my mind...the ultimate question would be despite how I FEEL, would I do it all over again if I could? Yes, yes, I do believe I would.... maybe, I guess one thing at a time. I couldn't ask for a better partner than Ozzy, and Ozzy that's another thing. He's been my absolute rock, taking my stubbornness, my mood swings, all of me in stride, my silence...he understands.

I STILL just hate questioning or doubting what he sees in me, it's hard to believe a lot of times...he in the end CHOSE ME.

Back to Angel, my little angel.... Doctor says she's healthy, that's all I can ask...never could have imagined that I of all people could have a healthy child. My doctor has shown Ozzy and I the scans, just one baby...one baby, who I love dearly...but why am I SO huge then? My back...ugh, that's yet another fucking thing.... I....

"There you are..." Softly, I hear Ozzy's voice ring out so as not to startle me, and I feel him sit beside me, a hand automatically going to my stomach...him smiling. I wanna remember this.... I WILL. His other hand gently caresses my cheek, "Mick...you're crying darling."

"I didn't realize.... It's just a lot on my mind. I can't sleep, I close my eyes.... and...and I see well a nightmare, nothing but darkness..."

"Firefly..." Ozzy's voice begins to tremble. "I know...I KNOW. And I know you didn't come to me because you believe me to be worried enough, while that may be true...at the same time it is not. You can come to me for anything, at any time. You could NEVER AND I MEAN NEVER bother me, ever. You're not a burden and I'd do ANYTHING to take away your pain, your fears."

"I-I am s-So afraid.... I won't get to hold her when she's born. Will our daughter even k-know who I am? I.... just...I..."

"Mick LOOK at me." Firmly, urgently.... softly as I've dropped my gaze, I manage to do so. "I am afraid....to lose you and her all over again. I cannot lie to you my Queen.... because of your back and how all this...is affecting you, but Mick I fucking promise you here and now that our ANGEL, she knows you...she will know you. And I know you've only been growing ever more miserable....and on that end...I have an idea..." Ozzy trails off, "But first..." It is here he kisses me, slowly...sweetly, growing more passionate until we part for breath.

"What was your idea?" Softly.

"Maybe go for a swim...well I figure the water, and all may help relieve some pain.... help you feel better if you wanna try it." Caressing my stomach now, my hands join his.

"Why not take a Shot in the Dark?" and it is those words...that would lead to eventually to the song 'Shot in the Dark' off the 'Ultimate Sin' album being written by Ozzy and myself. And other songs he and I wrote for other albums and that's all I will give you for now...now, on with the damn show.

Ozzy smiles and I shit you not, it's like a sunrise and I hope our daughter gets his smile...this may be cliché but who cares, there is NO comparison to me or for me. He tells me to wait a minute, and what seems to me mere moments later he comes back laden with large fluffy towels and fresh clothes and then helps me up, making sure to have me in a secure and firm hold, while somehow managing to strip down to his boxers as he guides me into our pool and to my surprise asks me....

"Do you trust me?"

"Yes." Fiercely almost.

"I want you...and I promise, I will keep you safe....to help you float on your back.... I won't let you fall. I'd NEVER." Allow me to interject here, Angel was safe.... If anything, Angel was very peaceful.

I without hesitation agree to try and slowly, Ozzy has me floating on my back making sure to keep me safe and all my fears, they all fade away....and I feel peaceful, even my pain...even that begins to fade.

"THANK YOU." I whisper to Ozzy, "I feel.... like in this moment.... Everything bad is fading away. Our baby is calm...it's the most peaceful feeling. Even my back pain is fading."

"I Love you SO much." Ozzy says softly and it's truly the perfect response. I float for a bit on my back until I opt to SEE Ozzy, so slowly.... He lowers me to my feet and takes me in his arms as best he can with my stomach between us and rests his forehead against mine. "There is nothing I love more than moments with you...and i wouldn't trade them for the world Mick. This IS love."

We stay in the pool a wee bit longer before I finally decide I wanna sleep that I CAN sleep, and before I know it, both of us are dried off and changed clothes...hair included and I find myself in our bed, nestled among the 100s of comfy pillows, feeling so much calmer....at least for the night. Ozzy and I trading kisses.... when suddenly he gets a bit nervous...

"What's wrong? D-Did I do something?" My voice is small.

"Never...and nothing...I'm just...nervous because.... oh blimey..." Ozzy roots around for something on his side of the bed and to my surprise it's a box? "I've been meaning to give this to you for a while....and I wanted to ask you...." Here he opens the box, my jaw drops, and the tears come. It's a ring, a black band with diamonds the color of my eyes. "Will you do me the absolute honor, the absolute fucking honor of marrying me?"

Ozzy is wide eyed, tears rimming his expressive eyes....and I manage to find my voice....

"You really want to marry ME?"

"YES, Firefly.... i DO."

"Then John Michael Osbourne.... I would love to marry you; it would be my HONOR."

"Does that mean 'yes'?" Hopefully.

"That my prince of Darkness means yes...." I smile, as he slips the ring on my finger and kisses me senselessly.

"I love you Mick.... Now let's see about getting you and our Angel some sleep, yes? And if those nightmares come my love, I will be RIGHT HERE to fight them off."

"Love you too." I murmur sleepily. I feel a gentle kiss to my lips and then to my belly and then I give into sleep....

A/N: Surprise! Ozzy asked Mick to marry him, and he said yes! Also, some tender love and care. Next chapter will see Mick closer to Angel's arrival...and I have a surprise for when that comes, that I don't wanna give away yet. Stay tuned!