Shot in the Dark: A Mick Mars X Ozzy Osbourne Story

Chapter 6-Sixx Ways to Find You Part 1

Let me start by saying that just because Doc was behind bars, doesn't mean there wasn't drama to be had...the fallout from HIS actions, Kiss finding out and that would lead to Gene Simmons finding Nikki, leading to another confrontation with each other. All I will say for now is that Doc pulled strings with Kiss yes and emotionally manipulated Nikki.... feeding him info about Gene, well I guess he did the same to Gene.... but still Gene DID do wrong, it was hard for him to come to terms with his feelings and especially what he found out when he DID find Nikki....

Some more weeks have passed, things have been chaotic to say the least what with dealing with Doc's fallout, Nikki has become more reclusive...more like me, he misses Gene though he doesn't admit it, and his morning sickness is still terrible and now everyone on tour knows he's pregnant. Nikki has just entered the third month of his pregnancy and thank God we have an off day today; Vince is off screwing.... with Jake E. Lee.... they'd started seeing each other recently...so great yet another couple that found love or were finding it. Ozzy and i? well, he's acted even stranger lately, than usual...always quick it seems to dash off for a phone call or to meet someone...and he gets higher than before. But we talk here and there, usually it involves Nikki and God is it fucking awkward between Ozzy and I! But those eyes, I see something strange in them.... that doesn't come from a high...

Anyway, back to the present...I can't concentrate on what I am reading in the least. Nikki is writing lyrics and eating his cravings, which I wouldn't touch with a 10ft pole...but Nikki says the twins seem to enjoy and that leads to more tears...over Gene.

"I-I...can't stop!" Nikki hiccups, throwing his lyric book aside tearfully stuffing his face. I know exactly what he's referring to. So, I change the subject, and he flips it around. "So, what's up with Ozzy and you?"

"None of your business Sixx! "I snap, before apologizing. "Sorry...I...I don't know what to think, he seems like he's always in a hurry, to get away from me...like we talk here and there, but its awkward. But then there's this strange look in his eyes...I have no fucking clue what it means, I don't think I wanna know either." My tone is bitter and small.

"I feel your pain...God, do i... look at the pair of us huh? The proverbial outcasts.... something is up with Ozzy though I'll say that...and I get this bad feeling." Nikki stops short, rubbing his baby bump...as if drawing comfort. At seeing my look, he says, "You know how you get those feelings of yours?" I nod. "Well, I've been.... what if.... You know HE comes for me? I still haven't forgiven him and... what if...I mean...he doesn't want kids...much less kids from ME."

Nikki would a few months from now, run to me....to get away from Gene trying to find him.... he felt safer with me, he told me. he was just so damn afraid to trust Gene....and it would come at the worst time of MY life.

"Do you want my honest opinion? Because I am afraid you won't listen to me. But what the fuck I know about Love?" Firm and bitter in my answer.

"Ozzy is always hanging around a lot." Nikki says to himself, his eyes narrow at me before shaking his head. "Just go ahead and say it."

"I think he hasn't come to terms with his feelings, he doesn't see it...doesn't want to...he loves you Nikki, and that scares him...it may well scare him about the twins. You have every right to be angry with him, he did you dirty even with out Doc interfering....I..." I am interrupted by a knock at the door, Nikki panicking until Ozzy's voice sounds out.

"Oi! Can I come in?"

"Yeah." I call out.

"Thought I'd pop in and see how Sixx was doing....and to lend support...." Ozzy's look is knowing, Nikki's eyes widen as Ozzy clarifies, "Gene Simmons is here.... i heard them talking about it down at the desk...he's looking for Nikki. I told staff to pass it along for em' to bugger off." Ozzy finds a chair to sit in, Nikki meanwhile is panicking.... not good. I despite my spine's protest, sit at his side....and try like hell to soothe him.