Till Death Do Us Part

Chapter 7

Yn

She consumed my mind and showed me everyone dead because of me, I had snapped and killed everyone
When she showed me that, she let a little piece of her get through, she was like me and possibly the only person that could kill me
Bucky spooned me and fell asleep while all I could think about was her, how is that possible I was the only one that survived contact with the stone
I could finally relax enough to fall asleep until a nightmare woke me and Bucky up in a cold sweat
I start heavy breathing and my vision gets blurry
"Yn?! Are you okay?!" Bucky tries to get my attention
"I- I-" I couldn't get a word out, I felt like I couldn't breath, I kept gasping for air
"Yn breathe!" He was panicking
"Do it with me, 1...2...3, breathe in, 1...2...3, breathe out" he continued with that for awhile until I could breathe again
He looked in my eyes and cupped my cheeks, "what happened?"
I try to keep breathing, "I died"
"Was it Wanda?" He asks
"Yeah" I respond
He kisses my forehead and hugs me, "you're not gonna die on my watch"
We lay back down and he holds me to get me back to sleep

In the morning I take a shower before Bucky wakes up
All of my blood that was stained on my skin from the night before washed off and flowed down the drain
The shower was quite relaxing until Bucky barged in, I basically jumped out of my skin
"BUCKY!!!"
"What?"
"You scared me!"
"Oh sorry yn"
"You're good, are you getting in?"
"If you want me to"
"You better take that shirt off then"
He joined me in the shower and he let me wash his hair
After he rinsed his hair he shook his head and slung the water that was in his hair at me, making him laugh
"Oh fuck" I whisper to myself
"What?" Bucky asks
"I have therapy today" I stutter
"You go to therapy?" Bucky asks
"Yeah, my childhood was kinda traumatic"
"Why did you say oh fuck about it?"
"I just remembered it"
He cupped my cheeks and kissed me, it was soft and slow and said so much without saying anything at all
He pulled away and looked into my eyes, his eyes sparkled with passion and lust and love

   I said bye to Bucky and started my drive to my therapist
   It was a generally calm and nice day, it was foggy and cool, not humid
   I arrived and walked inside where the receptionist greeted me and told me where to go
   "So yn, how are you today?" My therapist asks with a monotone voice
   "Uh good" I respond
   "We've done this long enough, how about we just get right into it?"
   "Yeah, sure"
   "Have you been having nightmares lately?"
   "Only a few"
   "And what were they about?"
   "Bucky"
   "Did he die? Get hurt? Was he taken away from you?"
   "I was taken away from him"
   She wrote something down in her notebook and clicked her tongue
   "Have you had any panic attacks?"
   "Just one"
   "That's good, have you slipped at all?"
   "Not yet but I feel like I might"
   "Yn you have my number if you feel like you are or if you have, and I will pick up"
   "Okay"
   She writes in her notebook again, sighing this time
   We continue talking about my nightmares and life for about an hour, then I left and drove back
   My dog greeted me and followed me all the way up the stairs and to my room where Bucky was cleaning
   I fake cleaned my throat so he would notice I was standing in the doorway
   He saw me and paused cleaning to come give me a kiss and greet me
   "Bucky"
   "Yes yn?"
   "How long have we been together?"
   "As friends or dating?"
   "Both"
   "Well I've known you as a friend since the 40's?"
   "Okay"
   "And we got together a few months ago"
   "On an unrelated note, I think I want to have my wedding on a beach"
   "Yn"
   "Yea?"
   "Do you wanna get married?"
   My eyes lit up with happiness and lust, I wanted to scream yes, I wanted to kiss him and ask him to marry me, "yea..."
   "Okay,  but that's not my proposal"
   My eyes widened and actually started glowing yellow
   I hugged him and couldn't not smile into his chest

   Later we were on the couch watching a show, eating popcorn on the main floor living room
   Neither of us realized it but Tony wasn't there, nor was Steve, we didn't really care though because we were chillin
   Bucky ended up falling asleep on my chest... and entire body, he wasn't really heavy so I didn't mind it but I was only wearing a sports bra because they're comfy
   Anyways he was laying on my chest and his breathing was soft as it glides across my bare skin, making me shiver but not from the cold, from his breath
   I shivered myself to sleep, dropping one hand to the floor but the other was on buckys back so it didn't move
   I didn't notice when Bucky got up because I was in a deep sleep
   I woke up to Bucky between my legs, I gasped and heard him chuckle quietly
   He slid his fingers inside me all of it all at once making me moan
   He would thrust his fingers inside then out until he pulled them all out then I could feel his breath on my core
He spread my thighs more with his hands, keeping them where he put them and squeezing them every time he caressed my clit with his tongue
"Oh fuck!" I moan out
He continues but about 5 minutes later we hear the door slam and I put my pants on, then we sit on the couch like we weren't doing anything
Tony sits in the chair across from us, "I'm sorry yn" is all he says and my heart hits the floor
I look at Bucky then Tony, "sorry for what" I ask trying to keep composure
"Bucky, Steve and I have to go on a mission, for 3 months" Tony breaks the news
"3- 3 what" I ask
"It was furys idea"
I stand up, "Tony let's talk" I drag him into my room
"This is your idea isn't it!?"
"No yn I swear"
"Tony I can read your mind quit lying!"
"Okay, it was fury's idea to leave for so long but I chose who would go and Bucky is a really good fighter"
"Send me!!" I accidentally yell loud enough to know everyone outside heard me
"You know I wouldn't do that"
"Quit letting your emotions stop me from going on missions!" A tear falls from my cheek
"I don't want to lose you"
"You wont, you know damn well I can die"
"You can"
My mind finally caught up, I could die and if I wasn't careful it would be soon
I sit on my bed and bury my head in my hands, "is it hydra?"
"Yeah" he takes a deep breath "look yn I'm really sorry"
I start actually crying and Tony hugs me, "I should've thought it through but I promise he will be okay"
I pull away and look at him
"Keep going to therapy while we're gone" he says and walks out
Bucky walks in after and hugs me, "wait for me darling" he whispers in my ear