Ghost of a Nonentity (NOTHING SERIES #2)

Chapter 45 (Gage)

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Two years. I've been looking for my brother for two years now. I stopped everything and just kept on traveling and traveling, looking for him.

He contacted me when I was in the Philippines. When Cha and I are still okay. He threatened me about Anikka, to not fall for her. As if!

I'm not gonna fall for anyone other than Sicha Leonette.

Speaking of Cha, she never left my mind ever since we parted ways. I've always wanted to be with her again. But she's so mad. I don't think I can handle seeing her mad at me.

Maybe it's for the better... to stay away from her. Maybe...

Two years of looking for my brother wasn't worth it. Because he just suddenly went back to the palace, claimed the throne, and married Anikka. It all happened on the same day he arrived I was so surprised!

I also went home immediately. I wasn't even able to attend their wedding. The day was so messy, especially with the newlywed. They were so dramatic after the ceremony. I understand, though. Anikka's so mad.

My brother's such an ass for leaving then coming back after years then will just suddenly marry her.

I let out a deep sigh as I stared at the ceiling.

"I miss you, Cha..." I whispered.

I closed my eyes tightly as the familiar longingness and loneliness is back again. It was always here every night before I sleep. Sometimes I don't even sleep anymore. I can't sleep.

I can't believe everything with Cha got ruined. I'm so mad at Anikka but when she told me she just wanted my brother to feel threatened and jealous that we're gonna marry, I didn't know what to feel. She's just, after all, my brother's lover. Grant leaving her must have hurt so bad.

"Too bad it will never be successful, Anikka," I told her.

She just finished explaining why she was desperate to marry me.

"My brother didn't want me to marry you," I added.

Her brows furrowed, "How did you know?"

"He told me." I pursed my lips.

I looked at the view in front. It's such a dark and peaceful night but all I feel is loneliness. I want Cha in my arms. I want to hug her so badly, talk to her, kiss her, and make love to her. Fuck, if only things about me aren't that complicated.

"All this time... you have contact with him?!" She was starting to get annoyed.

I raised a brow at her, "Back in the Philippines. After what you did, I didn't have any contact with him anymore."

She went silent. I saw guilt in her eyes so I looked away. I don't want to feel bad for her and pity her. What she did to me and Cha is just something I don't and will never accept.

I thought I can only understand her reasons but never forgive her, but as time passes by, I just did. Maybe because I was also slowly accepting the fact that Sicha will never be in my life again.

I stayed here in Sweden for another two years. Inside those, Granet and Anikka got okay. Their war took so long to end. The endgame? Another marriage but full of emotions now.

I was so sure... I don't want to ruin Cha's life or even show myself. But Grant and Anikka's marriage made me feel so bitter and weak. I wanted us to marry, too. I want to marry Cha so badly.

It was something I really wanted to the point that I always dreamed of being in the church, her in a white gown, walking in my direction. She was smiling so wide, looking so happy being married to me.