Thoughts I Had Today

The fear of the unknown

How does one know where to go?
How does one know they're confident?
And that they've made it?

How do you know that you're content with what you have? With where you are?
With who you are...?

I've got a long life ahead of me
So many paths I've yet to venture
But don't know which road to take

There's just too many

Loud noises
Whispers
Gossips
Lecturing
Always so repetitive, saying the same things.

Every time my ears catch them, anxiety grows within.
The fear of becoming disappointed and being disappointed with oneself.

What will become of me?

Will I ever achieve what I strive to be?
What I strive to have...

I know the right thing, but the path is too dark for me to see my way through. I am unsure.

A leap of faith. It's scary. It always has been.
Will I ever be ready to take the first step forward?
Or will I always be stuck in this ongoing loop.

I don't know. That scares me too.
The fear of the unknown.

I feel like a lost cause.