Will, Mary, and Noel are staying here. The kids are shy around me, but at least they don't hate me. When they first arrived Will told me Nico was dead. I don't understand how that's possible. I told him they can stay as long as they like. Will told me that he felt weirdly okay. I wish I could say the same but I feel so heavy, like something is sitting on my chest weighing me down. Why does it hurt so much, when it's Will, not me, that this is happening to? I don't know what's going to happen now. I want to be held forever, held so tight that I forget my own name, and force myself to believe maybe everything will be okay.