I don't know what this is. I don't think I can be Eleanor's girlfriend right now. I don't want them getting their hopes up. I don't even know if that's what they want. I wish I could invite them over. Or that they would invite me over. Or anything really. I promise I'm going to try really hard to get good grades and stuff this year. I'm not getting my hopes up or anything but it's not like I have anything to lose. And if miraculously my grades are good and I apply to tons of places there has to be one that accepts me, right? And there's all kinds of financial aid stuff out there. Like I said I'm not getting my hopes up but that doesn't mean I'm not going to try.
