Eleanor called me today. I wish I hadn't picked up. Hearing that voice hurts too much. I can still read her journal since she emailed it to me. I know I shouldn't but I can't help it. The last entry said "how is she so okay". How can she possibly think I'm okay? It feels like I'll never be okay again. So...Will has definitely helped. I've barely been away from him the past couple of days. Talia says that breakups get easier and I hope she's right. She gave me a lot of advice for getting over Eleanor but it's so hard to try and go back. I wish I'd met Eleanor sooner. Before the kids. That I'd met her on my own, instead of through Livi. Because the truth is, most of our problems are because of her.
