Today was hard. Will's barely talking to me so I have to remind myself he's got a lot on his mind and obviously I'm not one of his priorities. I'm just making things worse. Eleanor has been amazing. I really don't deserve her. I feel like a burden and I can't help feeling like the whole situation with Livi is my fault. Half the kids are on a quest and everyone's convinced at least someone's going to die. Frankie asked me to promise to make sure Livi doesn't kill herself and I said I'd try. I really can't make any promises. I want to do something. To help. But I don't know what. Everything is such a mess. I feel useless. Ugh, not everything us about you, Kayla. I need to just shut up.
