He said he loved me... (completed)

'Needed space' WHAT?!

My life had literally got very busy, I had 'Cinderella' rehearsals every lunch time, just managing to get a sandwich down; but then again, getting the main role was totally worth it! I suppose it kind of made me focus on my education, my school life, although I spent a lot of time thinking about Nico.

He had sent me a recording of him performing 'fast car by tracy Chapman', well, more like I kind of stole his phone and sent it myself because his voice was absoloutely beautiful! It was the best guy voice I'd ever heard (for those of you who haven't heard the song... you so need to check it out!)

The following Wednesday, afterschool, I yet again went to meet Nico. This strange tingly, butterfly in my belly feeling never ceased when I was around him and it just made me adore being with him. I turned up in our meeting spot, by the stream and walked up and down as it was really cold.

I started to go over lines, trying to memorise some of them, knowing that I have a full script to learn. I glanced at my phone 3:35pm. He's late. I started to get nervous, this isn't like the Nico I know... My palms started getting sweaty, I didn't like this kind of feeling. I started to dread something. I wasn't sure what it was but the song 'fifteen' by taylor swift kept coming back into my head, the lyrics tearing at me.

When you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

You're gonna believe them.

And when you're fifteen don't forget to look

before you fall...

Did this mean something? Or was I just freaking out... I stood around for a couple more minutes, recalling everything that had happened by this stream... My first kiss, hug and the first time Nico said 'I love you'....

You see, we didn't say things like that... not that we don't care about each other, but its because those words are so special and if you say them everytime it feels like they're being used up, as though they have an expire date... I don't know, I've always viewed it like that.

3:40pm.

I sighed, glanced a final look up the hill where he would've been coming down and turned and walked home.

I was stood up. It probably wasn't intentional...but it hurt. I didn't see it embarassing though, like most would when they'd been stood up, I viewed it more dissapointing. I was surprised at Nico, although I was trying to convince myself that it was a misunderstanding.

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That night, after completing my homework, doing chores and chilling for a bit, I had spoken to Nico on facebook like we usually do, I was itching to ask why he didn't turn up, but I at the same time didn't want to appear clingy or annoying, Not that I am clingy, I mean I have never literally forbade him to do anything, nor have I said that he can't do something without me...

We had our normal conversations, including lots of flirting and general concern, welfare questions and the like when I finally summoned up the courage to ask:

Monzika: Hey, um, where was you today?

NicoMartineas: ?

Monzika: We were meant to meet up?x

NicoMartineas: Omg! I didn't realise... I'm sorry,hun x

Monzika: Naa, s'alright...how's college? What song you working on now?

I quickly dropped the subject. I felt suddenly dissapointed, I couldn't help it. He seemed so... distant and distracted nowadays...

NicoMartineas: We're doing a project, got a test coming up x

Monzika: Hahah, well I wish you the best x

NicoMartineas: Well... you know that kind of means we wont be able to see much of each other...

Monzika: Why>.<

NicoMartineas: Well... I'm kinda gonna need to study and stuff...

Monzika: Oh

NicoMartineas: Don't get me wrong... I love spending time with you... It's just that this is the big time, ya know... I gotta do well on this one, I need space

Monzika: No, no, I understand. Trust me ;) S'alrighty... well, when can I see you?

NicoMartineas: I dunno... I'll let you know x

Monzika: Okay x

NicoMartineas: Anyways, so how was play rehearsals?

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I lay in bed, thinking. Something was wrong. He needed space? that's like saying, I'll still be with you but I don't want to see you! He's become so distant by now, that even I don't know how to react. I just decided to play it cool... que sera sera...whatever will be will be.

But thinking back now, the only song I can relate to this is

I remember when we broke up, the first time.

saying this is it I've had enough, coz like

we haven't seen each other for a month, when you said you

'Needed space' What?!.....

We are never ever ever getting back together!

I just hoped this song wasn't going to be a part of my fairytale...