He said he loved me... (completed)

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The days went on, one after the other and before I knew it it was almost a week since Nico and I last spoke properly...

sitting in my room and thinking about the last week nearly made me cry... I somehow knew inside me that Nico and I weren't 'together' anymore, but my mind wouldn't accept it, I desperately wanted it to be like my fairytales... And even though I didn't know it, my heart was preparing itself, building a wall of tough iron...it knew, whilst my mind refused to accept it.

I sat in my room, doing homework, and just being really depressed. I had no mood, I wasn't aware of anything that went on around me, it seemed like the smile was permanently wiped off my face, I felt terrible. Not to mention all of the thoughts that were going through my head...

What if Nico was cheating on me?

What if he no longer likes me, thinks I'm pretty or likes my company?

What if I'm not good enough?

These kind of things made me feel exhausted and my mind was in shut-down mode. I slipped into my pyjamas and into bed, remembering Mya's birthday party the next day: Friday, as I drifted off to a restless sleep.

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Friday. Yet another, worthless day, or so it felt like...

I stayed after-school before I made my way to Mya's house. They had already left together, and insisted on me going with them but I refused, I had to have my moment. I think Kendall uunderstood that there was something wrong, but she left me to it, and even to this day I am grateful.

I sat in the small room, containing only a drum set, two piano's and some stands and guitars, thinking back to lessons and how I had not heard a word anyone had said. I tried to act normal, as though everything was fine, but there was that deep part of me that kept hitting the signal, screaming 'something is wrong!'.

That's why I wasn't in such a 'party mood' for Mya's birthday, don't get me wrong, I loved and still love parties, I love letting go and having fun... but I just couldn't at that exact moment.

I pulled a chair by one of the piano's and grabbed a pen out of my bag whilst shutting the curtains at the same time, darkness engulfing me. Ahhh, that's better I thought as I sat in the dark with a pen in my hand. I leaned forward and engraved on the piano 'I wuz here' feeling like I had some sort of connection and ownership of the one thing that could never let me down in life: My music.

As I sat there, I somehow fell into a depressing mood where everything around me was shut out apart from the piano. I didn't hear, think or feel anything apart from the sound the notes were making, and I set my head down and played simple keys that had so much meaning behind them that it was unbelieveable...

twelve notes, creating an airy melody and a single note bass. But those notes described exactly how I felt. Empty and emotional. I hit the record button on my phone, hoping to not forget this melody and somehow words started flowing from my mouth; without any thinking coming from my mind...

When the stars give way, for the moon to shine...

I remember your eyes, and the things you say,

when the world's caving in, and there is no-one to fall back on...

I see you're always there, I feel that you will care,

guide me through this mess, our world is just a test,

to see what I become, and if I do it wrong...

I know that you'll be there, a secret I have shared...

When the stars give way....

I removed my leg from the pedal note and sighed deeply... so emotional and in pain of what my heart knew was going to take place...

I knew I just needed to be strong, I said to myself as I collected my things and glanced behind my shoulder at the place where I can be me... without anyone's opinion. Just me...

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I hope you guys are loving 'he said he loved me...' so far, unfortunately it's coming to an end :(

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