He said he loved me... (completed)

Depression and Anger

When Kate finnished explaining every single detail of what Gina had said to her, the only thing on my mind was to give that girl the biggest bitch slap in the whole universe! But then the sad and depressing thought of having the guy I fancy so much ask out my cousin instead of me... That kind of brought my anger to a sudden freeze.

I've always been very insecure about liking guys because I know for a fact that I'm not the prettiest girl around, I know that i may not have everything a guy wants in a girl and so having a crush for me is a very dangerous thing because beneath all of that hard core acting, I just don't like being hurt... I think I already have enough on my plate.

"Ok..." I plainly said, straight expression on my face "Not being soppy or anything but... I honestly don't think anyone would ever like me for me" I suddenly felt like crying...

"Stop... You deserve more love and happiness than anyone I know! Don't think like that, number one if he doesn't realise, then he's the idiot-"

"Yeah, right... keep saying that and one day maybe I'll believe it! Haha.. Maybe I wasn't good enough-"

"I said stop! And number two, remember we can't trust Gina! Of all people! She's probably lying!" Kate sat back, happy with her reasoning.

"It's so redicilous that I'm working myself up over this, when I've never even dated him... but I'm surprisingly not angry at him I'm angry at her... She's my mutherfrikkkin cousin!!" I wailed.

Kate and I had a very long and close 'Heart-to heart' talk, where I told her exactly how I felt when we suddenly heard laughter. Male laughter!

I stepped out of the back garden, pulling a giant fake smille upon my newly glossed lips and looked for the familiar voice... I froze.

No! Gina and Nico! Together... walking up the little hill, laughing together! I turned back and shut the gate to avoid embarassing myself and instantly killing Gina.

I moved over to the sofa my aunt held outside and sat down like a 'mafia' person, waiting for the bitch to come in and my claws to come out...