He said he loved me... (completed)

forgive and forget? don't think so!

Chapter 6: forgive and forget? Don’t think so!

On our way home I didn’t say a word to Gina, after all what did she expect? That I’d just fall at her feet and beg her not steal the only guy that appeared interested in me? No way! I’d rather die first, become a nun and survive without music for a decade than suck up to her! Kate and I were making polite conversations, saying stuff like

“Oh, did you remember once in Lithuania when you came to visit and we went to that park…” carefully avoiding questions to do with Gina.

When we finally got by my place, I’d never felt so relieved in my life! I can honestly say that with my hand on my heart! I quickly opened the door, took my shoes off and ran upstairs like my bum was on fire; even my mom poked her head out of the living room to see what made me run so fast. But what made me run was not a visible force; it was just the urgent need for somewhere private and secure to let out all of my anger. I think Kate understood this and left me to it. She didn’t come upstairs and by the sound of it; tried to keep Gina from coming up.

Unfortunately, Gina somehow managed to get past Kate and come storming up the stairs. She burst into my room, looked down on me then started going through the wardrobe.

“If you don’t want me here, say so.” She said loud enough for me to hear even though her back was turned.

“I’m fine. I can share, and respect.” I growled, sticking my head under the pillow.

“I don’t get what’s up with you lately…” she muttered, almost to herself; but that was enough for me

“What’s up with me?! Me?? Oh, so now there’s something wrong with me, huh?” the anger started bubbling up again and this time I couldn’t control or calm it down “Because the last time I checked, I was getting my tits out in front of the guy my cousin likes!”

I looked her straight in the eyes, waiting for her reaction; but almost as if she’s made out of stone, she didn’t even flinch.

“Right… so you think I ‘stole’ the guy you’re not even dating?” she used her fingers as little apostrophe’s which just pissed me off even more, and the identifiable sneer in her voice wasn’t calming my anger either.

“I didn’t say steal! You knew I fancied him! What the hell’s wrong with you?!” I was about to lash out, the thin strand I had wrapped around my anger dishevelling and quickly dispersing when Kate walked into my room, in between the both of us standing up and facing each other as in a truce.

“Mom’s calling you” she simply said to Gina

. Gina grunted something that sounded like ‘great timing’ and pushed her way past Kate to get out of the door. As soon as the door was shut, I threw the pillow at it and covered my head in the duvet and had a screaming fit. How can she just twist words around and manipulate me? Why did I let her? She’s supposed to be my cousin! Cousins don’t do that to each other, do they? When I was finally relatively calm, I poked my head out to realise that Kate had to watch me have a bitch fit.

“Sorry” I mumbled then closed my eyes and started to massage my temples, betting on the fact that I’ll have a headache within the next half an hour unless I get out to somewhere peaceful.

“Don’t worry ‘bout it. It used to be part of my daily occurrences… see, better not to have a sister sometimes.” I truly felt sorry for Kate at that moment.

Imagine having to put up with that for half of your life! I would’ve committed suicide or manslaughter. Or would it be womenslaughter? What am I thinking about? Ok, I seriously need to get out!

“Wanna go for a walk?” I suggested and was relieved when Kate nodded her head.

On my way down the stairs, my mother called me.

“Yeah?” I said as I poked my head through the living room door.

“Come in. shut the door, sit down.” She said simply.

I followed her instructions, feeling my palms get sweatier and sweatier by the minute, I didn’t even know why! 

“Yes?” I squeaked, barely trusting myself to speak above a whisper.

You see, you don’t mess with my mom. She’s not the type of person you’d want to get involved in a fight with, and definitely not the type of person you’d argue back to. She grew up in Lithuania and was raised by her sister: Auntie Ausra, because her mom (my grandmother) was an alcoholic at the time, and she basically saw the harsh side of life and doesn’t want us to experience it, I guess. She’s really strict when it comes to school, where you’re going, who you’re with and the typical stuff like chores and bed times, but she overdoes it and turns it into like a schedule and if we mess up or something… well, an earthquakes predicted! But she’s not that bad… I mean, sure we had our moments, but doesn’t everyone? I’ll still love her no matter what!

“I heard there was a problem?” she asked, although she probably already knew the answer but just decided to test me.

Must’ve seen Gina rush out of my room… Mom doesn’t really like Gina in  particular her nasty habits and past disturbances, she prefers Kate and doesn’t hide it, even Kate’s mom knows that my mom doesn’t like Gina. I know, awkward… But I kind of get her point of view; no really, because Gina’s had more boyfriend’s than socks I own and not including the fact that some of them were even over 22! She’s kind of lazy and just goes out a lot, looking for guys to chill with and I guess my mom’s afraid that she’s a bad role model for me! But I actually told my mom this and I still believe it: Gina’s not a bad person inside, she just needs to be given a chance.

“Not with me.” I replied smartly and curtly without any additional information because if my mom knew that there was a boy involved then... well, I’d rather not go into it; because number one: my mom won’t allow me to have a boyfriend. Number two: I would never be allowed round my aunts again and number three: Gina and I would never be spotted together again

 Not that I’d want to talk or be seen with her.

“Ok… just stay out of her way. She gets moody. Aaron’s been telling me that you didn’t do the washing yesterday…”

oh no! I’m gonna kill him! Snitch! “Sorry. Just been tired lately, I’ll do it tonight.” I said and walked out of the living room, into breathing space. Phew!

“Let’s get out of here before anybody else needs me!” I said to Kate who was in the kitchen, eating some chocolate bread. We slipped out into the warm sunshine, but suddenly it didn’t feel the same. Not the way it did this morning. I didn’t know that nothing will ever feel the same… I didn’t know that that’s when I was beginning to change, into who I am today…