Love Maneuver (LOVE TRILOGY #2)

✭ LOVE MANEUVER 45 ✭

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Drino Wang

Fear or Love?

I still remember what I said that night. 'Yong mas worth it isipin na sinunod ko 'yong puso ko, instead of focusing on fear, anticipating that something bad will happen or denying what I feel by holding it back and never expressing it. I know it's normal to feel fear of being hurt. Especially kung isa or nakaka-dalawang relationship ka pa lang, which means, you're still not experienced when it comes to love— handling love.

However, this time, I want to focus more in love. Our future may be uncertain, yes, but I'd like to focus my lense in here and now, enjoying every bits of our moment together. And I know, it's hypocritical to say na expert na ako when it comes to managing my emotions, but I'd like to persist and believe that whatever hurdles come our way, we would still believe in each other, accompanying the love we have, embracing everything in love.

Kung matatakot ako, titingnan ko si Mark.

Kagaya ng ginagawa ko ngayon. My eyes are on his face. Ang payapa niyang matulog. Nakadapa siya, nasa left side 'yong ulo, nakatakip 'yong blanket hanggang sa wings scapula niya, medyo magulo buhok, while me, nakasandal na sa headboard.

I still can't believe na nakasama ko siyang matulog sa isang room na kami lang.  After we kissed, diretso na kami natulog.

Pero ewan ko ba if I was dreaming kasi parang narinig ko siya saying "I love you," to me. And I felt something touched my forehead. It was warm and peaceful.

Actually kanina pa ako nagising around 5:30 AM. Natulog naman kami around 10 PM. Nag-set ako ng alarm para agad magising and that time, 6:15 AM na. Napag-usapan din namin nina Kate na by 7 AM kami magb-breakfast sa mismong resort. Kasama na sa service package. All the guests would be having their breakfast sa isang store, it was wide open, malapit sa beach. Same place kung sa'n kami kumain for our lunch.

Nakapaghilamos na ako ng mukha at nakapagtali ng buhok, but I decided na sumampa ulit sa kama to observe him. Kung stranger ako, I admit na maki-creepy-han ako sa sarili ko. But the good thing, I'm observing him as his girl friend. There's nothing wrong with that. Besides, knowing that this is the first time waking up beside him makes it more even special to really laid my eyes on him. It was such a cute moment I would want to remember. Even though it wasn't our decision to be in a same room or the plan didn't came from our mutual decision, still I love the fact that I get to experience this with him. Me and him together.

Looking at him, I decided to touch his hair, carefully caressing it. Ang lambot ng buhok niya. I smiled when his eyes started flickering. Smiling, I reached for my phone to take  a photo of him.

Nang nakuhanan ko siya ng picture, kulang na lang mabitawan ko phone ko when I noticed his eyes starting to open and ano pa ba, his smile started to greet me. Sa mismong phone ko nakita. Without looking at me, kumukurap pa mga mata niya, and he said, "Good morning, baby."

Smiling, sumagot din ako, "Good morning, babe."

Nakangiti pa rin siya. Then je started moving, nakadapa pa rin, pero 'yong ulo nakaharap na sa 'kin, 'yong kamay nakasapo sa gilid ng jaw niya. "I love you."

Hindi niya tinanggal mga mata niya sa 'kin. "I love you, too."

Ngumiti siya at ngumiti rin ako. And yes we started the day with love.

I never intended to wake him up naman. Hihintayin ko talaga siya magising, pero n'ong 15 minutes before 7 AM, narinig namin na nag-alarm 'yong phone niya. He even assured him that I didn't wake him up. Kahit paano, that fact comforted me kasi to be honest, I was a bit worried.

Nadatnan na namin sina Kate na nand'on na sa place. Nasa bandang labas. Nag-wave pa nga ang gaga at sumigaw pa talaga 'kala naman niya kami lang 'yong guests. Napailing na lang ako. While si Khalil naman, nand'on din katabi si Kate. May nakita na akong tasang dalawa sa table.