Everything was great with Lily. It's more than great. He took Lily to Hogsmeade before Christmas break. He couldn't go with the marauders because Sirius and Remus still couldn't be in a room together, but it was a perfect opportunity to get to hang out with Lily, the love of his life.
They sat in the three broomsticks together, drinking Butterbeer, laughing at everything and nothing at all.
"Hey, i think you should come over to my house sometime before Christmas, you can meet my parents. Maybe I can meet yours? Merlin Lily, you will love my mum." James was smiling like an idiot looking at Lily like she was the only thing that existed.
"That would be nice." Lily smiled, "maybe I can arrange something to let you meet my family. My sister... she won't be the fondest of you." She sighed, "that's an understatement. She hates wizards, all of them. She will try to pick a fight and villainize you. Please don't fight with her. I love her even if she hates everything I am." Lily had a sad smile on her face as she gazed out the window and could have sworn she saw... Regulus black kissing Bartimus Crouch Junior on the cheek. She blinked a few times and thought she must have seen wrong. Barty Crouch is one of the most judgmental boys at Hogwarts. There was no way that him and Sirius's possibly death eater brother could be any more than friends.
But that's when she saw it, an expression that was so familiar with so many people she surrounded herself with. The look Severus has when she passes him in the corridors holding James's hand, the look Remus has when someone else is with Sirius. That face looked so foreign on the face of supposedly stone cold Evan Rosier looking at his two other Slytherin friends. She thought for maybe a fraction of a second that maybe those boys could be human, but then she remembered who she was looking at, and the kinds of things they have said and done in the past, and the thought left her immediately.
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Remus hated himself for blowing up for saying what he did to Sirius. Every time he saw Sirius, he wanted to kiss that frown off his face, but he knew he couldn't. That's not what Sirius wanted, never would want.
*I'm sorry*
*I'm sorry*
Fuck.
Remus had barely slept in days, he couldn't stand to be in their dorms, so he sat in the library until it closed, then he walked around the empty corridors, and if he got too tired, he sat in the empty common room until morning.
James and Lily were out on a date, Sirius was nowhere to be seen, so Remus decided to go back to his room to take a short nap, but when we woke up, Sirius was sitting on his own bed, staring at him.
"Remus-"
"I'll leave. Sorry, " Remus hurriedly got up, slipping his shoes on.
"Remus, wait!" Sirius grabbed his arm.
Remus looked at Sirius, and all he could think was *I need you* "Pads... I'm sorry." Remus mumbled, unable to take his eyes off Sirius even though he desperately wanted to.
"Don't be... I was being dumb. I can't just... I'm sorry. Can I give you a hug?" Sirius asked.
Remus nodded and pulled him in, "I needed this." Sirius mumbled into his neck.
"Me too." He smiled.
"Please don't leave again." Sirius asked, trying and failing to not sound whiny, but he didn't care. All he wanted was Remus.
"I think James would kill me if I did." Remus laughed.
"Are you coming over for Christmas again?" Sirius asked
"I think so. My father is going to be home and I'd rather not be around him for too long..." Remus mumbled
"That bastard. If I see him saying shit in the papers one more time, I might have to go beat him up for you." Sirius said defensively.
"No need. It's not his fault he got stuck with me." Remus mumbled
"Well, first of all, it sorta is, but second, nothing is wrong with you. If anything, he should love you more and change his views on werewolves. He knows you're not violent like greyback, but he continues with his anti werewolf propaganda, fully ignoring your existence."
"You're right..." Remus mumbled
"Damn right, I am. now stop being depressed, we're going to bother James on his date." Sirius smiled mischievously, already brightening up Remus's mood. He didn't know what he would do without his friends. He dearly loved each and every one of them.
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oml I am so exhausted fr, ive just been pissed at ppl from my school but they're rlly ticking me off, especially certain ppl in band holy shit. lots of stuffs been happening, this one girl has been harassing me nonstop and its taking all my willpower not to provoke her during rehearsals and get in trouble.
homecoming was over the weekend and I keep seeing my ex everywhere. hes like actually lowkey obsessed w me its getting creepy, even when he had a gf all he could talk about supposedly was me, he would watch all my insta stories and just constantly find me everywhere I swear but I saw him at hoco looking all sad and lonely and honestly that made my day.
ngl i am just waiting for marching season to be over, as much as ive always loved it, its not enjoyable like It used to be, the program and the people in it make it torture to go to class and rehearsals and i just cant wait for concert season bc i genuinely do love band and music i just cant deal with certain ppl at times, and during concert season all i have to worry about or be near is my section.
anyway i hope you guys are enjoying this story, its coming along just how I thought it would and its actually making me v happy and I hope yall like it as much as i love writing it.
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