Code name: Siren

Shenanigans

The next two weeks passed pretty quick.
I should start trauma therapy as soon as I would be back in the base.
I was bored out of my mind.
Roach and Soap tried to sneak me outside to go for a walk like every day.
It almost got a competition.
Because we never succeeded.
Vanessa and Simon seemed to be everywhere.

Because I couldn't walk with the cast they pushed me in a wheelchair.
We tried everything and every possible time of the day.
But Vanessa and Simon seemed to have a schedule who was watching.

When Vanessa caught us she used to scold the two boys and push me back in my room.

Simon was way more radical.
When he saw us he only picked me up and carried me back in my bed without even saying something.
He even recommended taking away the wheelchair. What seemed to be pretty unfair despite the fact I wouldn't be able to do anything then.

After the two weeks I got crutches.
I was strong enough to hold me up and walk.
But Simon didn't care.
He took them away and brought me back to the base in the wheelchair.
I had to argue and even get Price to talk to him to get the crutches back.

„When I see you walking around and overestimate yourself you're in trouble darling"

he said serious but he couldn't fool me no more.
I knew he was so harsh and commanding because he cared.
Everywhere I went either he or König was behind me.
I slowly got used to Simon using these little pet names on me.
It was so confusing at first.
But I had to smile every time he did it.

I still couldn't let that get through to me fully.
I was still hurt.
And I practically didn't wanted to give in just like that. So I tried to see it the same way I saw how König used to call me German pet names.
It was his way of showing me he cared.
How our connection were.

I couldn't pick up Königs and mine old ritual to go on late walks so we started to sit in the living room or outside to just talk.
I missed it so much.
He was one of the sweetest guys I knew.
Even if he was terrifying on the battlefield.

„So how's the thing with you and ghost?"

He asked one evening.

It was 3 weeks after I got back to the base.
Therapy was hard, it roled up a lot of old trauma.
But the situation in the base helped me a lot.

The guys did anything to entertain me and be there for me.
Price offered me to help him in the office so I wouldn't feel so useless.
Simon finally allowed me to watch them train.
He first didn't wanted me to because he was scared something could happen.
But the others had success in convincing him that having me cheering on the side was great for the team.
The team grew even closer together over the time. Even Simon's and mine relationship got less awkward. I would almost consider us friends.

But Königs question caught me off guard.

„Well. I don't know if there's a thing"

I said carefully.
I never made it a secret to konig that I liked Simon but I didn't knew what Simon had told him.

„Liz I know there is a thing.
Everyone knows there's a thing.
Everyone is talking about how Ghost had changed.
I mean, it's not that obvious to everyone of course. He's his old grumpy self around everyone. But for the team and with you he's like a whole new person."

„I know König. God yes I know. But I don't know what to do. I still have to think about the things that he said. I'm still so upset."

„Do you like him?"

„Well I think..."

„No Liz without thinking tell me do you like him"

„Well yes I fucking do. If I like it or not"

My face went bright red.
He was right.
I still liked him.

„Then you two have to talk and figure out how to fix this. Because this awkward tension between you two is hella annoying"

he laughed.
But I didn't.
I knew he was right.
But I didn't know how to do this.

„I don't know if I can do this right now. I'm not stable König. Therapy is fucking up my mind"

„I know. And you should take your time. But keep in mind that he also wants to fix this. Don't be so harsh on him sometimes"

„Alright I try."

I roled my eyes and nudged his shoulder.
This conversation was glued into my mind.
Everytime I saw Simon I had to think about what could be and how we could fix this.
After another week and a lot of therapy I finally forgot about it.
I had other things in mind.
I finally got off my cast.
I had to wear a rail and still walk on crutches but I could finally shower like a normal human.

Also Simon let go of the idea that I shouldn't walk.

After that long day I finally took a normal and pretty long shower.
It felt like heaven.

I got ready for bed.
The therapy session on this day was horrible.
We had talked about the fact that they had tried to rape me.
I tried to wash off the memories of this but i couldn't.

I layed back and fell asleep some time finally.