Code name: Siren

Big bang

Christmas passed.
It was actually pretty decent to have some time not always arguing with Ghost.
After that, when the others came back, our arguing got less.

But not less intense.
On that Christmas evening I saw a other side of him. And I thought a lot about it.
I was awfully attracted to him.
But he got on every nerve that existed in my body.

It was weird.
We had these episodes where we were an actually pretty good team.
And then we almost kill each other.
I couldn't get behind it.
But we talked more.
And the more we talked the more I got attracted to him.
It bothered me.
I wasn't supposed to like him.
It made me almost go insane.

All lead to this evening.
We had off after a long mission.
We all decided to go into a bar.
I decided to go full out.
Short black dress, a lot of jewellery and make up.

I met Soap and Roach in the hallway.

„Hellooooooo. What's going on.
Who do you wanna seduce, sweetie"

Soap was whistling.

„No one. I just don't wanna look like you rats"

I said sarcastically.

Roach laughed loud.

„This was plural you idiot she meant you too"

Soap pouted.
We went to the bar.
They said that Price and Ghost would come after us.
It was crowded.

König was already there.
Clearly uncomfortable in the crowded room.
I sat right next to him.

„Hey alles gut?"

„Naja viele leute"

he replied nervous.

„Ich bin hier."

I reassured him and padded his arm.
We all got something to drink.

Shortly after Price and Ghost arrived.

„Excuse me who are you and where is Liz?"

Ghost was joking.
It wasnt actually so unlike him.
I discovered that he was actually quite a funny guy.

„Who allowed you to wear that?"

Price even sounded like a father saying that.
We all had to laugh really loud.
It was actually a pretty fun evening.
I drank a little bit too much.
I was even more talking than usual.
At one point Ghost decided we needed to go home.

„Buuuhhhhhhhhhhh lammeeee"

I yelled as he held a firm grip on my shoulders and just guided me out.
I grunted but I couldn't really resist.
The fresh air outside hit me like a train.
I stumbled and giggled.

He guided me along until I kept stumbling.
He lost his patience at just picked me up and threw me over his shoulder.
I squeaked loud.

„Nooooo let me down. Pleaseeeeee. Simon!"

he didn't even answer.
Back in the base he finally let me down.
He brought me to my room and opened the door.

„Sleep. Now. That's an order"

he said stern.

„You're really no fun. You know I don't understand you."

I couldn't even stopp my words.
My tongue was acting against my will.

„You look at me with those pretty brown eyes, and practically undress me with them.
And in the next moment you call me an idiot.
Why don't you like me like I like you?"

And there was it.
The most embarrassing moment in my entire life.
I leaned on my door frame.
Looking up to him.
The alcohol gave me a confidence that wasn't good for me.
He just stared at me.

„Because you're an annoying little girl that can't shut her mouth and now go sleep.
I don't even know how the others can like you that much."

Without any other word he just left.
He was gone.

There was an painful silence.
At least I knew now right?
He didn't liked me.
Not at all.
I fell in my bed.
My head was spinning.

It didn't matter if it was the alcohol or the situation that just happened.
I felt terrible.

As I woke up in the morning I had just no energy to get up.
I was so embarrassed.
What have I done?
I ruined everything.
I could never even look at him.

And I didn't.

I took his response like an adult.
Or at least I thought I did.

Because I avoided him.
I almost completely disappeared from his radar.
Sure I couldn't do this in missions.
But in the base?

I was gone before he even arrived.
It hurted, a lot.
But I didn't knew what else to do.
There was nothing else to do.
I avoided every question from the team regarding my behaviour.
Everybody knew something was off but no one addressed it.
I could feel him staring at me sometimes.
I even think he tried to talk to me at some points but I avoided being alone with him at any cost.

I trained harder, focused on myself.
Everything to cover that empty feeling his words had left inside me.