Getting Through Life

Chapter 9: Get together

Trigger warning!

I had fireworks going off in my stomach. Her lips are perfect. They're just so perfect. Full, but not too full. Soft, but not too soft. They match mine perfectly. She is just perfect.

She let go and put our foreheads together.

"Best kiss I've ever had", she breathed. I couldn't speak. I was obviously thinking the same thing, but I was still on a cloud drifting off somewhere. 

"Are you okay?", she laughed slightly when she saw my eyes were still shut.

"I'm perfect", I panted out of breath.

"I've waited for forever to do that", she said. 

"Yeah, I'm still in disbelieve so you'll have to give me another minute", I laughed.

She laughed too and got up. 

"Where are you going?", I asked confused while I laid back in the sofa.

"Just going to get us something to drink really quick, just stay there and we'll talk further", she said.

Her little trip to the kitchen gave me the extra minute I needed. I was still in shock that THE Leah Williamson just kissed me. She came back and sat down again. She brought the both of us a cup of tea. This woman is Brittish for real.

"Thank you Le", I said sweetly.

"I meant it when I said I'm proud of you, Lou. Life won't ever go your way, but it is about making the best of it. And it won't be easy, it never will. But right now, you're doing an amazing job. As long as you're here and trying, you'll always be fine", she said. Again her words brought tears into my eyes.

"You really have a way with words", was all I could manage to say.

"I try too, you know", she winked at me. She put her legs on the big cushion on table in front of us and looked at me. She was urging me to do the same, so I did. She pulled a blanket over the both of us and snuggled up to me. I put my arm around her shoulders, while she put hers around my waist.

We just sat like that for what seemed like for ever. I didn't want us to move. I wanted to just stay in this bubble for ever.

"I wanted to get you flowers, you know", I suddenly spoke up. 

"Yeah? Why didn't you?", she giggled back.

"Because I was tired and fell asleep", I snorted. I didn't see the humor in that until now, and I laughed harder and harder. She laughed along and now we were being idiots. We laughed forever until I couldn't breath anymore. I had tears rolling down my cheeks once again, but now they were happy tears. I wiped them and looked at the beautiful woman in my arms once again.

She looked up to meet my eyes. She smiled. I never wanted to miss that smile again.

"Promise me one thing", she said seriously again.

"Anything", I smiled back.

"Don't ever think about ending your life again"

I squished my eyes shut. What do I tell her now? The truth? Which is I've thought about it even before my parents died. Or do I keep her in the dark for now? I don't want to ruin what we have now, but eventually it will come up again. I don't ever want her to find out like that.

"I've thought about it so much Le", my voice broke. She wanted to hug me once more, but I stopped her.

"Let me finish", I partially asked. She nodded while looking concerned.

"I wasn't ever in a good place. I'm in the academy from Manchester for as long as I can remember. You know my dad owned a part of it. I grew up with both parents who urged me to be the best. It drained me so much, but I loved them more. That's why I never spoke up about being exhausted. Not physically, but mentally. I don't think they ever realized, not that they would have cared anyways. I fullfilled their dream about going pro with football. But there were countless times I thought about it", again I went all out. I figured this day would become the day she gets to know the whole me, so I should just say everything now.