Getting Through Life

Chapter 14: Facing demons

There was only one thought on my mind. What if Leah slept with my twin sister? She said she looked exactly like me. That would mean she would be in England. Maybe Alex was in England too. How could she keep her but not me? They went to court for God's sake, they should have know, right? How the hell didn't they know?

My mind was going crazy, but I had her on the line right now. She picked up, like actually saw my name on her screen and thought 'Let's talk to her' or something. 

"Louise, is that really you?", I heard somewhere. Right, I should probably talk to her now, I can think later. 

"Hi Alex, or should I say mom?", I attacked her right away. I know I told Carli I would meet her in person to go over all this face to face, but I couldn't be bothered with that now. What can I say? I'm a spontaneous person.

"You know... Who told you?", she sighed defeated.

"That's what you're worried about? If you really want to know, G told me on behalf of the team. How could everyone know this but me?", I thought about calling her out about my sister, but I decided to wait a bit more.

"Look, I really wanted to tell you, believe me. But I couldn't because I-", she began talking.

"I know you got a restraining order against me. I know about court and everything. You don't need to explain anything, I don't blame you, I think. Anyways, you'll need to explain one thing", I said. I began stressing so bad I began to tap my foot on the ground. If Leah was next to me now, she would say I had to stop doing that because she says it stresses her out even more. But she isn't, because she couldn't help herself.

"Throw it at me, I owe it to you probably", she breathed. I can't believe I'm talking to my biological mother. Like, get this: Alex freaking Morgan is my mom. This is the same person that I looked up to. Not as much as Lucy Bronze, but it's a close second. Well, third. Tobin Heath is the second.

"How's my sister? How can you keep her but not me? Did my parents even know she exists?", I asked all at once.

"Okay, right. You really do know everything then. Okay, let me explain. Please don't interrupt me until I'm done, fine?", she sounded flustered, so she asked this before the big reveal.

"Fine, please tell me now", I asked impatient.

"Nobody but Carli knows about your sister. I hooked up with your father when I was barely eighteen, but I didn't know he was married. I was drunk, he was drunk and it was all just really stupid. Not that I mean you're stupid! I mean... Okay. Later, I found out I was pregnant and I immediatly panicked and told your dad. He began saying I couldn't keep it and other stuff like that. I didn't want to abort it- you, and I told him that", she needed a minute to let all of it sink in with the both of us. 

"Eventually, he understood and told your mother. I didn't expect he'd do that but he did. Then, one day, I had an OB appointment. It was then that they told me I was expecting not one, but two children. An identical twin", she paused to catch her breath, and to let the first part sink in I think. 

"Now, remember that I was still very, very young. And because I was young, I couldn't handle stressfull situations like this. My parents didn't know I was having a baby, let alone two. So, because I was stressing, I didn't tell your parents about your sister. They never knew I had two babies. It was believable because they never once visited me here in the States while I was pregnant. They never saw me. And so I only ever told Carli", I thought she was done, so I tried to speak up.

"So-", apparently she's not because she shot a glare at me. I then just shut up, threw my hands in the air and let her continue.

"You said you know about the restraining order and court?", she said. Or asked? I don't know so I kept shutting up.