Getting Through Life

Chapter 13: Unlucky me

I woke up. I felt a body next to me. I hope it still breathes, and I didn't kill whoever it was. Because the way I'm feeling right now, I would absolutely be capable of a murder.

I turned around and stared right into those perfect blue eyes. I guess Leah was up longer already. I remembered last night. Our last night together.

"Hi", she said.

"Hi", I answered. Sometimes things don't need to be difficult. We both only said one word, but a thousand were sent and received.

"I'll see myself out now. I really hope you'll be okay, Lou", Leah ripped the band-aid off fast.

"Yeah", I breathed while I closed my eyes. I couldn't watch her walk out of that door. I couldn't watch her leave knowing I let her without stopping her.

I heard the door of my room close, and that's when I knew. I couldn't let her go. Not while I still had her. So I did something most people would describe as the stupidest thing one could do. I went after her.

"Leah, wait", I shouted. But I was too late. I just watched the front door close. I realised I lost her. For now.

I grabbed my phone and tried calling her. I had to get her back. I found her number and pressed call. It rung. Nobody answered.

I sat down and began thinking. I know right? Anyways, I didn't want to, but I had to let her go. At least until I sorted all of my business out. Le was right, I couldn't handle with her and her screw up while all of my mess was still unresolved. She did it for me. It only made me love her more.

I remembered that I never actually replied to Carli. A part of my didn't want to anymore, but I should grab this chance before she changes her mind.

To: @carlilloyd

I'd like that.

I didn't write more. I could if I wanted, but I didn't think she had anymore business in my life. She'd done enough.

Incoming call: @carlilloyd

Should I pick up? Why not, right?

"Oh my God, I didn't think you would accept", Carli said surprised.

"So then why did you call?", I snarked back.

"Right, I'll get to business then. I didn't tell anyone that you contacted me yet. I wanted to make sure you were determined. You still want to talk to her?", Carli indeed went straight to business.

"I'm sure, Carli. Can you give me her number?", I asked.

"I was thinking of something else... How would you like it to come here? I think a face to face conversation is better than a call. You decide of course", she said. Was I seriously thinking about this? Was I going to America?

"Let's go with your idea. I have a game this weekend but after I'll fly straight out. If I remember correctly we have a day off aswell, so it shouldn't be a problem. I'll be there monday, make sure she's ready by then", I kept my ground. I didn't like Carli, and I wanted her to know that.

"Right, I'll tell her. But Louise, she has never, ever stopped with trying to contact you too. I wanted you to know that before you meet her. She's trying too-"

"You know, maybe I would have believed that when you said that a week ago. But I only believe things when I see actions. Did she ever come to England? No, because I would have known. Did she ever actually messaged me? No, because I would have know. Did she ever try to reconnect with my father? No, because I would have known. I have no interest in building a relationship with her, if that's what you're trying to say", I cut her off. I didn't want to hear her say anything else, so I just lied about these things. I wouldn't have known if she did all those things or not, but Carli didn't need to know that.

"Right, like I said, I'll talk to her today", she spoke up again.

"Fine"

"Look, before I hang up, I just want to say this. I know you blame me. I'm the only one left to blame. I know why you do it, you need a bad guy. But before you make up your own image about me, I want to tell you something. Can I tell you something?", I heard again. Do I want to hear it anyways?

"Go for it, try to change my mind then", I provoked her.

"I tried every day to change your dad's mind about it all. I said you needed a good support system back with your team. I told him I would make sure Alex never contacted you, even though that wasn't what I wanted for you. I tried everything I could", she said.

"So why did you leave Manchester then? There has to be a reason which leads to me and my family", I asked. I was totally lost.

"I left because I didn't want to be near it all anymore. I left because I knew Alex would try anything and everything to seek conta-", she talked away but I stopped her yet again.

"Don't brainwash me into that thought! She was the one who left me in the first place! Alex didn't want me. She gave me up for her own career", I said while I got tears in my eyes. How can someones job be more important than their own child?

"What?", Carli asked.

"Carli, I know it from the team, and they know it from you. Don't be like that now", I snapped angrily. I let the tears roll once again, because there was no stopping them anyways.

"I thought you knew the truth by now, but of course, you couldn't have know", I heard it click with her. But now I was ever so confused.

"What truth are we talking about now? It seems like everyone has a different truth", I sighed. I was so done with everyone and this thing.

"Alex never wanted to leave you. Your parents took you from her. Your dad first asked her to abort, but Alex refused. They then went to court and decided once you were born, your dad would get full custody because Alex' life is hectic with all the travelling. Plus the fact that she was single, so she'd do it all on her own. Louise, Alex got a restraining order against you. That's why I tried so hard to keep her away from you. She could've gone to jail if she met you. I told your team a different story, because I didn't want your life to be known by everyone. And especially if everyone but you would know it"

I sank to my knees. How is it possible to have a new story about my life like every week. I was so tired of this. I needed one person right now, but she couldn't be here.

"What else don't I know? Is there anything else? Carli, please if there is, just say it now", I pleaded. I no longer hated her. I changed my thoughts about her in the timespan of a minute. How is that even possible?

"There is one more thing...", she hesitated long to tell me.

"Spit it out, I can take it"

"You have a twin sister. Alex only told me, even your parents didn't know that. I'm sorry Louise", she told me eventually.

I can't believe this. How is this actually possible. Everyone, and I mean, literally everyong knew about my whole life but me. I was living a lie this whole time. How is this even possible? I don't understand.

I felt like I couldn't breath. I tried calling Leah earlier, but I knew she wouldn't reply to me anymore. So I called another person. I didn't have her number, so Instagram is was. It was a long shot, but if she wanted to be in my life, she better picked up right now.

Calling: @alexmorgan13

"Hello?"

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