Getting Through Life

Chapter 40: End of the season

It's the end of the season already. Tomorrow is our last game, and guess who we're playing?

Yep. Arsenal. The bright side is I get to see Leah again. It's an away game for us, but Amanda promised she'd come and watch. She'd bring the whole flock too, that way she could watch us end the season in style. And by that I mean us beating their asses. That'll be fun next year.

I'm conflicted about the end of this season. One part of me is just exited for it to be over. To start at Arsenal. I'll miss Lucy, Keira, Steph. All of them. But I'll miss G the most. She was in my life for as long as I knew football. She's been with me through my whole career. I love her to death. But she's not even going to stay in England. She's moving to freaking Bayern. Germany! That's like, twenty hours away. How are we going to survive that? But the other part of me can't wait. I'll play at a new club, new playing style. And Leah's there. 

Chelsea already won this league, nothing to do there. But that doesn't mean we're not fighting for our points. Also, things are bad again, really bad. I'm not okay. But me being me, I don't show it. I don't think anyone even notices it, I'm that good.

I can't explain it. I don't want to see any friends. Steph and G worked their heads off to get me to parties and other events, but I never wanted to. Them being them, they made me promise because apparently 'I didn't do anything fun' except for training. But I don't need to, I love football, it's my escape for everything. I also started cutting again. I know I promised Leah not to, but I just can't help it. Sometimes I don't even want to, but I just do it. It has started to become a routine. 

I recently heard from Amanda that Felix is doing great. His grades in school are amazingly high, seeing the circumstances. Martha could never reach him, I made sure of that. She is currently rotting in prison. The judge gave the bitch fifteen years after they played my video. I had to testify about everything, starting with my childhood, leading to the events of the video. My mom tried to have Felix testify in her favor, but after he discovered what she'd done, he never wanted to see her again, let alone speak to her. 

Back to me and my interesting life. We didn't have any other training today. We had one this morning, but now we had to recover and then get ready to travel. Because we sold so many tickets, we're playing in The Emirates. I've never played there, so I'm super excited.

Sandy is back already. She recovered from het horrible ACL but she still has to take it slow. Gareth obviously knows I'm leaving, so he's starting me a final time. I still haven't told the team, but I think they expect it. I don't have to renew my contract because it's still pending, but they see it in my behavior. 

The fans also don't know anything, and to be honest I'm scared for their reactions. Arsenal and Manchester City never had a rivalry like Arsenal and Chelsea or Arsenal and Tottenham, but still. It's always scary because you don't know if your new club's supporters are going to accept you. And if your old club's supporters are going to accept your departure. 

I try not to think about it, but City is all I've known. It's thanks to the club, the management, the team, that I'm here today. The scariest part is the moving itself. I'm going to another place where I don't really know anyone except for Leah, I don't know the neighborhood. I'll have to find a place to stay. Everything will be a hustle. But I'll be alright, won't I?

Time skip

Game day. We're going to crush you, Arsenal. 

I checked my phone. No new messages. Leah and I agreed we'd send nothing today, because we need to keep our heads in the zone. 

I didn't even set my phone back down and it pinged already.

I thought she couldn't resist, but it wasn't from her. It was Lisa, she sent a photo.