5th Feb
A day filled with a lot of fun I taught 16 kids today. That's so happening. I felt so happy when the kids kept asking me if I'd come next week. I feel so content knowing they enjoyed learning. My life goal is to make learning fun because, growing up, I always liked studying, but due to family situations, I couldn't have an ideal scenario to study properly. We were a joint family staying in 1BHK, and later my parents split up. No one was there to hold me accountable for my education, and my brother used to scold me if I studied because he never liked learning. I met an old acquaintance, and we clicked. We conversed at night, which made me excited to talk more. We had a conversation on the phone as well until 2 a.m. I committed to being an accountability partner to a friend whom I recently started playing with. She is kind, beautiful, and smart—maybe a little lost. I look forward to helping her with direction. If not much, a little. I am content with my weekend, from my canceled plans to my unplanned meetings with people bumping into people, from my ex to my friends. Life is beautiful. I couldn't see the moon today. I kept searching for it, and I didn't think much of my crush, like he clicked into my mind when I was traveling back home from volunteering, thinking that I didn't miss him or obsess over him. I asked myself this question: Is he the kind of person who would do this? I believe he would. Then I prompted myself, "No, it doesn't matter, because he is not real." He is a fictional character. Then I focused on being grateful for what I have today, which is so many kids to teach and play games like bingo, connecting dots, etc., so my technique of teaching is conversational, activity-oriented, and giving breaks where we all play together as a reward for studying. It's a great way to teach, and it works so well. I really wish I could help more. Whenever I teach or talk too much, my voice becomes hoarse, so that's a problem. Or else I would have been apt for a teaching job or something; it's such a grateful feeling to teach, including fun things, as if learning is fun. I wish I could do it more than a day in one week. My few students like "Salma," who used to be all distracted and not study at all, are so focused now, and she enjoys studying on top of it. She has started teaching kids younger to her; that's what I changed in her. She makes me happy, and her progress makes me realize I have this power in me where I can help someone grow to their potential. I am going to do it with all the kids there. I have planned to teach phonics to all the kids so that English spellings won't be a hassle, and I also have so many other plans to execute. I enjoy Sunday morning; it makes me grateful for what I have and can provide. I want to do more things, like guide teenage guys who don't study in a way they start helping around with something instead of doing nothing at all because they have potential. My one solution is to start playing football or cricket with them and later start communicating simple topics as fun conversations, slowly and steadily moving on to bigger things like ethics, the importance of things, etc.
Over all, it was a productive day, and I played some games and had two coffees in one day. That's a big thing. 2 coffees, black and normal, both at the same time with a 30 minute gap.
