Why does it bother me?
Why do I want to possess something?
I don't have any authority on
Why do I seek him?
When he doesn't even see me
He doesn't look at me.
He doesn't care.
Maybe as a friend at best.
I like him, and I am accepting him as a friend.
The process has been hard.
But now it's accepted, and we're moving on.
Something did spark today.
But it wasn't jealousy.
A little insecurity, and then it hit me.
Did it start today? Nope.
You lost it a long time ago.
Now you are just seeing enough to know.
It's all a part of the trail you saw a while ago.
The only good thing was
It didn't bother me like it would before.
Now I am accepting this.
Our new-found reality
Living by the day and being prepared
if it loses all the power
This friendship had or has
I am not holding on or letting go.
I just reciprocate the energy.
I recieve
If it stops, so will I.
If it goes on, so will I.
It's simple yet complicated.
It looks convenient, but it's complex.
It's all fun and games.
When it comes to us,
A moment of friendship and passion
Then to nothing
Yet there's something left to pick up.
Now it's all a ruse. We play along.
In order to don't get caught in the realism of ourselves,.
Before, it had power.
Now, we both have.
That's the change I learned and observed in myself.
Thanks for all the teachings so far.
Your change was one of the best.
