Late-night thoughts
That I actually sent him instead of typing
Here it is.
All of them
1st text:
My love project
I couldn't read the whole thing in court, and I was curious about Exhibhit E.
Reading it was extremely satisfying and happening.
Only we can make something like this into a work of art peacefully.
You know, today while I was writing notes and texting you in front of the counselor (as if we were cheating on a test), that's how I always see us as a team, for you to memorize, and now while typing it, I realized
This will be our last project.
Just like our UK dream, engagement, and Canada dream, and now this is a proper ending to it all.
You are investing your money, efforts, and energy.
I am investing my time, efforts, and knowledge of documentation too.
We will do it carefully and be successful in this too.
We are a very good team. If we had ever started a business, it would really come along fine.
He kept hearting each text.
2nd text
Also, the last thing
This is something just you wanted, or at least more than me.
So for the first time,
I get to do something that's more for you and less for me.
Thank you so much for giving me this opportunity to return the favor to you.
3rd text
You could pick anything to get out of me, and I would get it for you.
You chose to get me out of your life.
Something must have struck you really hard to break your heart, and I hope you heal.
In my honest opinion, the last thing wasn't a taunt.
Writing:
Anyway
I think of your hurt, and it breaks me knowing
You lost it all.
You lost your friend, your mother, your elder sibling, and your lover.
It hurts me to know you are all alone.
It breaks my heart to know I broke you so badly.
It also shatters me to accept that I could never make you see the real me.
I would never ever let you be alone, but I did because you left me long ago in the journey of partnership and acceptance.
Find your happiness and peace.
Find your success and love.
Find yourself, baby.
Be free from me and the worldly chaos.
That beholds you.
I used to feel a part of me would be torn apart knowing you, changed for someone but not me.
No more; we were friends, parents, and siblings too.
I'll smile the widest with a happy tear rolling down my cheeks like a parent.
I'll be in a bittersweet dilemma of getting a room and parents to all by myself, my constant supporter of my dreams (sibling).
I'll be the most wrecked person with a grumpy face and best performer of the evening sangeet required for it, while also losing my partner in crime (friend).
That's how I would like it to be.
Not a lover who broke my heart or his
I will be this to you.
Maybe it is not as easy as it seems.
Your astounding happiness
It will be one of my greatest achievements in life.
Because I couldn't give you that
I at least didn't hold you back from it.
I keep thinking this, in one way.
You change, and I can make it work.
No, chonu, it's a two-way thing.
Working, growing, testing, loving, caring—everything
Just like all our goals
Our relationship was never worked on.
It kept delaying.
cause of people, situations, stress, etc.
So it died like a plant, which we never bothered to take care of together.
To know the limitations of it
So we broke the pot down.
And went haywire.
I hope we learn from our mistakes and
Be each other's friend in need.
A happy memory,
once-in-a lifetime luxury,
Each other's first love.
Who got to marry their first love?
Not everybody is lucky to even get so far.
Let's focus on the achievements of our love.
Instead of failures
Let's love ourselves more now.
Knowing we had so much love to give someone, we did so purely
We will try our best to continue to do so.
But with distance and apart
Keep us in our prayers and hearts.
Hidden from the world
Revealed in our memories
Fond of our fascinations with art
Relive the suddenness of life.
This greed to show this
It comes from a deep-rooted need.
For a child to get his
Father's approval
Like, Daddy, Daddy, please see this.
That day of us buying Belgian waffles
I took out a ₹500 note from your wallet.
With all my rights was the first time and
Happened to the last person
I ever trusted so much
That's one of my highlights.
I see in the movie memories of us.
Another one is subway dates.
Then, at the top of the London view,
Kiss in London's eye
Many more
Most includes
There I get to be this cute little kid?
All coddled by you.
And the recent one is of me hugging and
Crying and asking you to know what happened?
Why did you leave me?
Like an idiot.
I have no regrets.
I did that, and you let me do it for a few seconds.
Before setting us apart.
That was your version of Simon - go back.
Today (monday) I wanted to stay back at Jio World Drive.
Go everywhere we went together.
In order to cherish it all and soak it in,
But I couldn't because of work.
In my mind, I traced the steps.
From twisting scoops to super dry
Foo and the walk
All of it
I am glad you weren't there in court.
I am glad you don't live here to face it all.
I am happy to know soon.
You won't be stuck with me.
I will be nothing but a phased-out person.
Of your life, and I know it will be better than all the painful things you suffered through.
This isn't a self-pity cry.
I am aware and accept myself and you.
I love you the whole of you.
So can't wait to end this 12th November
I'll pray to God that you do it in Canada and save a lot of money as well.
I know it's not realistic.
But I do look forward to knowing
You are getting married to someone you love.
All happy and madly in love again.
With a girl who makes you and your mother
Both delighted
That day will be a gift to me from God.
Because I really wish
Someone could give you a new perception of life.
The key to life is living it a little.
I really look forward to
Your friend is calling me up.
Just to pull my leg
Ki dek le Abhi time hai.
Huwi nahi hai
You calling me up and sharing the news with me
So no one else tells me first.
I know that's expecting too much.
But at least knowing a part of you becomes like that happy side of Aditya
Who learned from Geet how to live in the little moments of life?
Because I couldn't teach you
But if someone does
I'll be grateful to that person.
Let's remember the achievements of our love
Rather than the failures of it
We did so much and made it so far
