It's getting better each day.
I miss him less.
And it doesn't make me cry.
I am glad he is tough that way.
He can stop communicating almost completely.
Except for important work
I don't seek his attention anymore.
Everything makes me miss him.
From eating outdoors
To the places we have been together
Which is almost everywhere.
My watch and my clothes
Handpicked by him
His taste in food, clothes, shoes, and life
Is luxurious and unique.
He owns it.
The things he likes
Nothing else matters.
Nothing can demean it.
He won't care, even if someone does.
Today I prayed to Bappa.
Let us both find our way in life.
Give us both what we need.
He is always in my prayers.
This year, we will be over.
Our whole arrangement will end.
We will both not be tied to each other anymore.
We might never talk again.
There won't be any more reason to do so.
That's breaking me a little still.
But I think his will is so strong.
It helps this whole thing a lot.
